The professor had, with her help, erased all her psyches. And it felt empty and scraped out and hollow and wrong, and so, so good to be the only one inside her head. The loss of Scott... had been nothing compared to finding out who Risty was, who her mother was, why she had been adopted and how she had been used, from the beginning, from the very start... Everything had been a lie.
And as she lay there, hurting in every way and on every level, the last thing she wanted to remember was the fact that she was Mystique's daughter. And then he'd come in, and smiled at her, and called her his sister. Tying her right back to Mystique. But it also tied her to Kurt, and she couldn't hurt Kurt by rejecting him. He was her friend, he was an X-Man, he was already her family, but Gawd Almighty, she couldn't claim him either. Claiming him meant claiming Mystique, meant owning loud out and in front that the woman who had adopted her, the woman she had loved and thought loved her... was the same woman who had lost her son due to her actions, and the same woman who had tried to hurt them all - had recently tried to kill Scott - so many times.
It was all too fresh and raw.
So she hadn't said anything.
But he kept at it. And she started thinking that maybe, out of this, just maybe... she could get a real family. A family she could be glad of, be proud of, depend on...
And then she had been the one to let him down, and destroy what linked them together.]
...what changed?
[She knows she'll hear about It. At least, she thinks she will. And looking at the fireworks, she hopes she's strong enough to handle it.]
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The professor had, with her help, erased all her psyches. And it felt empty and scraped out and hollow and wrong, and so, so good to be the only one inside her head. The loss of Scott... had been nothing compared to finding out who Risty was, who her mother was, why she had been adopted and how she had been used, from the beginning, from the very start... Everything had been a lie.
And as she lay there, hurting in every way and on every level, the last thing she wanted to remember was the fact that she was Mystique's daughter. And then he'd come in, and smiled at her, and called her his sister. Tying her right back to Mystique. But it also tied her to Kurt, and she couldn't hurt Kurt by rejecting him. He was her friend, he was an X-Man, he was already her family, but Gawd Almighty, she couldn't claim him either. Claiming him meant claiming Mystique, meant owning loud out and in front that the woman who had adopted her, the woman she had loved and thought loved her... was the same woman who had lost her son due to her actions, and the same woman who had tried to hurt them all - had recently tried to kill Scott - so many times.
It was all too fresh and raw.
So she hadn't said anything.
But he kept at it. And she started thinking that maybe, out of this, just maybe... she could get a real family. A family she could be glad of, be proud of, depend on...
And then she had been the one to let him down, and destroy what linked them together.]
...what changed?
[She knows she'll hear about It. At least, she thinks she will. And looking at the fireworks, she hopes she's strong enough to handle it.]