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Who: Lots of people. ~~I'll unlazy myself when I figure out who tags this~~
What: Lesson of the Day: Being a Nobody is suffering.
When: All through April 9th.
Where: Specified in the comments.
Summary: Jixsan has already died, and funny enough, didn't mind it that first time. But the idea of disappearing now is the last straw.
Rating: A for angst. Ideas of death usually aren't cheerful. >>

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All right. [And she'll leave it at that.]

What are you going to do? [She could claim she was asking so she could tell Xion, when she next saw the other girl. It wouldn't even be a lie. But there's a faint note of... concern as she asks the question. It seems fairly clear to her that whatever kind of day he's had, it's been a trying one.

And wherever memories are involved, and the truth and illusions wrapped up in them, she has a feeling she can understand why - through what she's seen, if not what she's experienced herself.]

[His answer is flat, and in his eyes, completely truthful.] Wait to die somewhere.

[Though he amends after a soft "heh"] Or just disappear. It is still dying if I live on as someone completely different?

[Vash seemed to think the opposite. He's sure others would agree with the gunman. But Jixsan... can't. Because he doesn't want to turn into Sanji. He won't be him anymore.]

[... yes, that gives her a very clear picture of what's likely going on. Funny, how much it's reminding her of her own. Only Luceti has turned so many of those particular perceptions right on their heads, given that Kairi herself was here.]

I don't know. [She pauses] It's something I've wondered about myself.

[Maybe not now or here, and not very often. But in those few moments back in Twilight Town, when she hadn't been laboring to repair Sora's memory and struggling in vain to find a way to untangle the knots that Roxas and Xion had become; or else talking to Riku or DiZ, or even resting. In those moments, she'd sometimes wondered.

She'd never have time to fully come to any conclusions, so she could only guess. Though really, it wasn't like she, like either of them were supposed to exist. Maybe it was better this way.]

[... Something she's wondered, huh...?

When his glance returns to her again, it's not because she looks like Xion. His stare is far more narrowed and focused, regarding the girl as if seeing her for the first time.

Just who are you, he asks himself again, curious and even a tiny bit wary. But ultimately, after a few beats, it's not the question he voices]

Wanna take a walk with me?

[There's a moment where she hesitates, a little wary herself. Old habits die hard, especially when there's the potential that the Organization might be involved. But... she trusts that Xion would have warned her, if there was any of that particular kind of danger.

Besides, from the way she understood it, it wouldn't matter soon. And... she's not sure if her - if someone being there will help any, but if he's offering...

She nods, smiling slightly.] I would like that.

[Relatively speaking. Given Nobodies and emotion, and all.]

[The acceptance earns a nod. He waits for her to catch up before beginning the march into the forest anew.

For a while, Jixsan chooses not to speak, instead savoring the sound and feel of the forest. It was a habit he picked up living in Luceti - spending days in here, sometimes with Xion, Roxas and Axel, and sometimes alone. If anyone asked him why, he'd smirk and say he was imprinting his memories here, in case he ever left. So something remembered him.

It's not nearly as comforting of a thought, now.]

What's your name? [Unlike before, his voice is softer, as is his demeanor. One would think him completely harmless by the way he tilts his head and smiles slightly in her direction]

[While he reminisces, Naminé looks around the trees with slight interest. She hasn't done much exploring of Luceti's forests yet, preferring to stick to the more traveled areas. It was a rather peaceful place, though that peace seemed rather... ironic, considering the situation.

She turns her head in his direction at his question.]

Naminé. I'm... a friend of Xion's from our worlds.

[She isn't sure "friend" is perhaps the most accurate way of putting it. Certainly she cares about Xion and what happens to her, both here and back home, but they'd only just met face-to-face before she'd been brought to Luceti. But it doesn't seem like a good idea, nor helpful at all to complicate the situation, right now.]

Naminé... [A pretty name. Not quite what he expected to hear, either, and Jixsan isn't sure whether to take the lack of "x" as a sign or a coincidence. After all, she looks just like--]

You look like Kairi. [And Xion, by extension. He doesn't mean for it to sound accusing, but perhaps that doesn't matter when the suspicion is the same. And so, he settles a glance at her, silently asking]

[For a moment Naminé doesn't say anything, instead turning down to regard her own interlocking fingers. She'd been well-versed in caution for nearly a year, especially before coming to Luceti.

However, for the time being, and possibly after for all she knew, he knew a great deal of the intricacies of how their worlds worked. Not to mention the "x" in his name, and the fact that he was friends with Xion...

It's enough that she's a little more open than she might have been, otherwise, though a certain amount of unease remains.]

That's because I'm her Nobody.

... I see. [Her Nobody.

So he was right.]

... Despite the circumstances, it's nice to meet you.

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