That has never been enough. [When someone that important enters your life and your life is stretched to new dimensions, it can never retain its original shape and the empty space left behind will never quite be filled. It will always have been better if they had just stayed.
He'd always kept Martel's kind words close, cradled at the core of his heart as the walls caved in around it. He'd done what he thought needed to be done to honor her wishes, and in doing so twisted everything she cared about beyond recognition. He never once stopped cherishing that he had been given so loving a sister in so harsh a world.
He clung to all this to a fault. To the point where he wouldn't be able to let go. To the point where memories became as painful as they were essential to existing, to the point where obsession and ritual left him hungrier by the year.
Kaori's absence is less visceral, but it won't be easier. Endless thoughts and memories, could-have-beens and never-knows, will never amount to more than a cold husk of her companionship.]
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He'd always kept Martel's kind words close, cradled at the core of his heart as the walls caved in around it. He'd done what he thought needed to be done to honor her wishes, and in doing so twisted everything she cared about beyond recognition. He never once stopped cherishing that he had been given so loving a sister in so harsh a world.
He clung to all this to a fault. To the point where he wouldn't be able to let go. To the point where memories became as painful as they were essential to existing, to the point where obsession and ritual left him hungrier by the year.
Kaori's absence is less visceral, but it won't be easier. Endless thoughts and memories, could-have-beens and never-knows, will never amount to more than a cold husk of her companionship.]