[His next breath is something of a hitch - Why was this so hard? It shouldn't be this hard. This is what he wants, what would be better for everyone. (Because it's going to cause so much pain, already is, and he'd never, ever wish that on anyone. But that's why he's trying to do this now, isn't it?)]

I-I want to give Wanda the best night of her life. She deserves that much from me. I want this dance to be a good one for her...

But after that, I need to... stop. And I just - I wanted to let you know before any of that happens. I don't want to... I don't want this to come as a surprise for you, and - and the last thing I want to do is to...

[He finally does move his hand, to run it through his hair while he bites his lip. There's a center he can reach thanks to some of the self-help books he has, and thanks to wanting to live a life of stage work. Why can't he reach it now?]

I don't know what to do. I don't know how to do this... How do I do this without hurting her? That's - That's the last thing I want to do.