[Elizabeth contemplates trying it again, even if Gai clearly doesn't want her to. She even reaches out to see if the crack is still there, but pressing her metaphorical fingers to it earns her a sharp wave of fatigue. She said she could do it, but she can't. She can't save him, she can only open tears when it served their purpose. Didn't she deserve something for following that purpose a few days ago?]
Everything is so backwards, I can't straighten anything out. [She wraps her arms tighter around Gai, trying to keep her voice in check, trying not to cry frustrated, premature tears.] I'm not okay, I only have scratches on me but I feel like someone took my life and shook it around until nothing was right. I had a family but it always felt like I was stealing those moments. I didn't know what a tear was, but I kept remembering small snatches of when I was studied for them. Our relationship made me feel guilty, I had doubts, everything was too complicated!
I just want to feel like one thing isn't being rattled around anymore, I want to know for certain that I love you. That I would put myself through any pain if it meant you were safe.
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[Elizabeth contemplates trying it again, even if Gai clearly doesn't want her to. She even reaches out to see if the crack is still there, but pressing her metaphorical fingers to it earns her a sharp wave of fatigue. She said she could do it, but she can't. She can't save him, she can only open tears when it served their purpose. Didn't she deserve something for following that purpose a few days ago?]
Everything is so backwards, I can't straighten anything out. [She wraps her arms tighter around Gai, trying to keep her voice in check, trying not to cry frustrated, premature tears.] I'm not okay, I only have scratches on me but I feel like someone took my life and shook it around until nothing was right. I had a family but it always felt like I was stealing those moments. I didn't know what a tear was, but I kept remembering small snatches of when I was studied for them. Our relationship made me feel guilty, I had doubts, everything was too complicated!
I just want to feel like one thing isn't being rattled around anymore, I want to know for certain that I love you. That I would put myself through any pain if it meant you were safe.