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buffy anne summers ([personal profile] herotypical) wrote in [community profile] lucetilogs2010-08-01 09:30 am

you gave your heart to me

Who: [Bad username or site: univalent title= @ livejournal.com] & [Bad username or site: slaying title= @ livejournal.com]
What: The vampire and the Slayer work through the war and just a few of their abundant issues.
When: Backdated - last full evening of the draft.
Where: Battlefield/Dorms
Summary: It's a lot of violence with an extra punch of emotional turmoil. This is their typical canon recipe for sentimentality.
Rating: R (violence, etc)


Buffy closed her eyes tight against one more spray of blood. She felt it hit her face, warm enough to cause her stomach to heave with an instinct of disgust. It was a sign that even her resolve was beginning to tarnish. It wasn't that she enjoyed killing. Or, at least, it wasn't the kill she enjoyed. The fight was separate to that. The punches, the hits, the bruises and the adrenaline. They were all so easily separated from that final blow, the scythe slicing roughly through the base of a person's wings. Just like the General. It was that much harder when they didn't burst into a cloud of dust. So much more personal.

The Slayer had fared well enough throughout the week of battling. A few serious injuries, but they had been dealt with. Tonight, fighting in the eerily extra black-and-white moonlit night, she had collected an assortment of superficial cuts and slashes. Her jeans were torn on both knees--it could have been from any number of attacks. She couldn't remember which ones, specifically. Far too focused on the task at hand. She tugged back. Hard. Disengaging her weapon from deep in the back of her latest enemy. In the early days of the battle, she had tried telling herself not to care too much because--enemy or not--these were people and they would come back. Just like the rest of the dead in Luceti. Only that rationalization lost its appeal rather quickly. Resurrection rarely translated to hope for Buffy Summers.

She breathed out. There were so few members of the Third Part left in their little slice of Hell. She dropped out of slaughter-mode for a moment to try and catch her comrade's eyes. Spike. She knew he was close. She could feel the vampire's vampire-ness all the more strongly thanks to the removal of whatever restrain the village normally had in place on her abilities.

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-01 01:30 pm (UTC)(link)
The fighting was a lot more hands on for the vampire, who was much more lethal without a sword in hand - though he had one and alternated between using it and discarding it in favor of just making due with his hands - and didn't shy away from the splatter of blood. In fact, in a way he would not soon admit to for the sake of not disturbing others with facts he was pretty sure they could guess well at anyway, the blood gave fuel to the energy he felt. Not in the sense that it was literally feeding him, of course, but the mere smell and sight of it made him feel alive with restlessness that needed to be spent and drove him to fight more, to keep going and tear more into the forms of those they'd been sent to fight against.

He liked killing and then he didn't. His demon thrived on it, sang out in a roaring chorus of triumph each time someone fell at his hand, smirking within his being at the smell, the sight, the sounds, the feel - all of it was like one beautiful, blood musical number he was taking part in. The part of him that was human, the soul, hated it; made him frown and cringe at the sound of bones snapping and flesh ripping, but knew it was necessary. He'd told her once, before he'd gotten it back, that war and killing were a natural part of the cycle of history, that people like Caesar and the Europeans who claimed the Americas from it's natives were just following the steps of that waltz. That still rang true to him. You did what you had to do, because it was what needed to be done.

And what needed to be done wasn't always pretty or what you wanted. You make due, suck it up and deal.

Spike stepped back and wiped blood off his face from a cut on his left cheek, just below the eye, with the back of his hand. He looked over at the Buffy, a few paces away, and watched, silently, as she did her duty just as he was doing his. His mouth twitched up at one corner for a brief moment when he caught her gaze, a quiet signal of being alive - or rather, still undead with the 'un' not threatened.

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-02 02:09 am (UTC)(link)
Spike dusted himself off and strolled closer, perhaps a bit too casually for a man who had mere moments before snapped the neck of one of their winged foes, stepping over the now lifeless body on his way over to her like it was a fallen log and not something that used to be a living, breathing individual. Thinking too hard about those kinds of details put one in a place that was full of distraction and more Angel-like tendencies than he was comfortable with stepping into. Those weren't his shoes. He wasn't on a quest for redemption and wanting to sit in a corner and pout about the bad things he'd done. He'd been an evil, soulless vampire for Christ's sake. Killing was what evil, soulless vampires did.

Unless you're Harmony. Then you just fail entirely at the execution of anything remotely situation appropriate and instead focus on fashion and generally being annoying.

...there's one upside to being in Luceti and one thing fighting a war that's not his certainly trumps.

"Don't know about you, but I'm in favor of that not exploding part that tends to come with that typical sort."
Edited 2010-08-02 02:09 (UTC)

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-02 02:59 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, he knew. He could feel it. That defense mechanism that was built in to all vampires that made them feel antsy and pulled towards corners of shade and darkness told him the sun would be up soon. He could smell it, too; the way things just smelled more warm when light started to touch them. Back in the day, when he'd been new at this ("and a little dim," if one were to ask Angelus' opinion which Spike considered invalid), he'd dash for shelter, despite being able to tolerate sunlight a little longer than most vampires due to the strong, ancient blood that flowed the veins of vampires of the Order of Aurelius line, not wanting to take the risk.

These days, he was a bit more bold and reckless, willing to wait until that split second moment where getting out of the fresh rays of light was a necessity to keeping oneself from becoming a glorified pile of dust. With a seemingly disregard for just that, he followed her.

"You didn't explode. Just sorta fell. Slow motion, like it was a scene right out of a movie. Don't know if it was that portal or just the way I saw it, but...you saw." Spike gestured to his head to indicate those ridiculous thought bubbles that had projected memories around a while back. "Not falling's a definite plus. Not fun, that. The fall and then the part after where things just bloody well hurt."

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-03 01:25 pm (UTC)(link)
"You didn't go splat," Spike said with an odd amount of ease, though the underlying emotion that the memories dredged up could be heard in his tone, altering his usual timbre by a slight amount only those who knew him well would be able to pick up on. Like the woman at his side. "Must've been more the portal, then. Slowed it down or somethin'. From that height, there should have been a splat--" He mimicked this by raising one hand up and slapping it against the palm of the other. "--but wasn't. Glad for that. Would've been messy and made what Red did a hell of a lot more difficult. Easier to reanimate a body than it is to put goo back together."

So morbid, yet so the usual when it came to conversation topics. They were both so very desensitized to the sorts of things that made people squirm with discomfort and tremble in fear. Probably what made them good candidates for this sort of job outside of their mutual fighting abilities and strength.

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-03 02:59 pm (UTC)(link)
That's Spike for you, picking up a stick and poking at the bees' nest just to see what it'll do, regardless of the potential negative repercussions that could come from that sort of careless prodding. Not that it was anyway careless, as he'd picked his words as carefully as he was capable of. The wrong slip of the tongue and he'd find himself in a squabble with her when they were supposed to be fighting an enemy that wasn't one another.

Speaking of enemy-- The vampire took a step back, shifting into game face due to the rising morning sun pulling at him for the added strength letting his demon out gave him. He delivered the necessary blow with a good kick, then grabbed the body and gave the bloke a good toss off into the distance. If he wasn't dead, he wouldn't be able to move and would be soon. Win/win and no more effort required.

He sniffed the air for good measure, then shook the game face off. "Don't smell anyone else. Good too, sun's comin'. Need to head in." There's an unspoken, open question there of whether she's going to follow or stay out and fight some more.
Edited 2010-08-03 15:01 (UTC)

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-03 03:38 pm (UTC)(link)
"Been workin' like dogs and all," he said by way of agreeing with (and approving of) her Beatles reference. The song played on silently in his head as he walked along side her on their trek back to the teleporters.

He wasn't sure how he felt about this being the last day they were doing this, out here fighting side by side like it was a Sunnydale standard apocalypse. Without the threat of the world coming to an end, of course. This was just...a war. Spike had seen 'just wars' and had even participated in them. Not by choice, mind you, as the Nazi's had lured him in under false pretenses and left him in that box on that submarine without asking if he'd be good for going along with their vampire army plans. He'd gotten out, of course, and Angel's (who he still thought was Angelus at the time) had put a stop to that nonsense, but still. In a war. Sort of.

"Least we're going back without another smudge to our already up there die and return records."

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-03 05:20 pm (UTC)(link)
Spike gave her a good look over - for once not pausing to linger on the obvious areas...or all the blood, which was very tempting to stare at, but he knew well that she would be off-put by his attention being drawn to the blood covering her. Yes, he wanted to look, but he didn't. Because drawing unnecessary attention to the fact that he was a blood-craving monster wasn't what she needed right now and any potential negative reaction she would have to that wasn't what he needed right now. That jazzed up, restless feeling he'd been met with so often since coming here wasn't there anymore, that energy having been spent on the trail of bodies they left behind them. Killers, the both of them, in their own ways. It was who they were, what they were; it defined them whether they wanted it to or not.

"Doesn't really work for you," he said, half-criticizing, half-teasing. "I said bugger that. Got that stealth thing down without looking like the wallpaper I'm standin' against. Not about blending in so much as it's about not drawing attention to yourself. Do that just fine without looking like I'm Riley bloody Finn."

--wait. Crap. Too late. He winced, his face screwing up for a second at his word vomit that normally, he wouldn't bother to reign in, but tonight was different. They weren't slinging mud. He hadn't meant to sling it. ...she got that, right?

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-03 06:34 pm (UTC)(link)
Spike stopped just shy of stepping onto the transporter, his skin starting to tingle as the light started to lift itself up over the horizon. The look he gave her was a strange one, almost scrutinizing as if she'd spoken to him in German or some other tongue he didn't know a word of and he was trying to make sense of what she was trying to say. Which was precisely what he was doing, for not only did her words make no sense at all - gold? - her tone was a miss. He was expecting snark and venom, not this lightheartedness she was giving him.

Red. What did she mean by-- That red shirt he used to wear instead of the duster? He hadn't worn that since...it'd been a while and not here. He just stuck to the black on black on black ensemble here. And since when did she compliment the way he looked, anyway? Had this been any other morning in any other setting, he would've launched at her with a verbal assault and accused her of messing with him, baiting him, playing one of her little games in order to get a laugh or a rise or something, but right now... She was just being plain confusing.

"You're not making any sense, love. And while I'd like to get into the why of that how, I'm starting to sizzle."

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-03 07:19 pm (UTC)(link)
"I am never going to get used to that, for the record," Spike said the moment they rematerialized on the other side in the dorms. Part of his discomfort with popping out of one place and popping into another was largely due to a good chunk of his ghost time that he hadn't told her about. Pavayne toying with him and pulling him down, phasing him in and out of visibility to Fred and Angel and the others at his will.

He stepped off it - perhaps a bit too quickly - but covered up his unrelated discomfort with the transporter with his displeasure and her baffling words. "Alright, no dusting threat, aside from you and that scythe of yours, so spill. Word vomit. Less vomit, more words and please to be usin' ones that make sense, because I'm afraid I left my How To Speak Buffy Babble dictionary in another world."
Edited 2010-08-03 19:19 (UTC)

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-03 07:44 pm (UTC)(link)
There were questions right there on the tip of his tongue, but his attentiveness to tact in this situation kept him from uttering them. He wanted to so badly and was very tempted to just blurt things out where all could here, but he could not bring himself to be so careless for a variety of reasons that weren't as simple as her perhaps made them out to be. With an impatient roll of his eyes, Spike grabbed one of her arms and hauled her off and towards his room. 'Hauled' was perhaps too strong of a word as her more guided her and pulled her along while being careful not to further injure her than she already was.

His room was the first they came to and thankfully devoid of his bunk mate. He pulled her in and shut the door. They were both a mess, dirty and covered in blood that was not their own. Perhaps the sensible thing to do would be to put whatever this talk was on pause and get cleaned up, but since when did Buffy and Spike do sensible?

"Red. You said red works on me and you didn't say it with sarcasm or spite. If this is some sort of game, I'm bowing out now. Got enough at the moment without adding that dance to the show."

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-03 08:05 pm (UTC)(link)
For a long moment, Spike was silent. It was rare for her to honestly throw him for a full loop. He knew her too well, whether they acknowledged it or not. But right now, he had no earthly clue what-so-ever what she was getting on about. Red wings. He glanced back at them, having often forgotten they were even there. He'd grown accustomed to them in the months he'd been here. He rocked them.

What was that? The compliment and saying not once, but twice?

"...if it's not a game, then what are you doing, pet? I can't... I don't know what you're trying to pull here and I don't like not knowing, especially when it comes to you. I can usually suss out what's going on in your head, but I haven't a bleeding clue."

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-03 08:21 pm (UTC)(link)
"Don't really have the right to withhold them, given what I am and what I've done," tumbled out of his mouth. He didn't necessarily mean her as he did with second chances as a whole, for it had yet to click into place what exactly she was getting at. "Doesn't mean I'm going to give them. Not having that right and obeying it are two completely different things and obeying, not really sitting firm in the seat I was told to sit in. I'm more standing against the wall in the back, because let's face it, watching the teacher squirm is a hell of a lot more fun than caving to direction."

He smirked slyly at that, but her looked made his own melt off his face. She was... She couldn't, could she?

Spike took a step back, then two forward - a third, then stopped. "You're not...asking what I think you're asking, are you?"

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-03 08:44 pm (UTC)(link)
Buffy isn't good with words and Spike knows it. He likes that they're back, partially, into a realm of the know. Her word failure is a bit adorable, but that's not getting voiced. In other situations he'd voice it to be sweet or voice it to get on her nerves, but right now, he doesn't much trust himself to speak in the face of the plate of information she's just served him. She wants a second chance with him. It's not the second chance that's got him, it's the with. When they were...whatever they were two years ago, it had been about the sex for her, about her feeling and taking out her confusion on him where she wouldn't allow herself to with others. He'd taken and given selfishly back then because he'd been incapable of fully understanding it due to the lack of his soul. Now that he had it..

This wasn't the same confused girl who'd clawed her way out of her own grave after being brought back to life by her best friend. This was a young woman tempered by battle and losses, both her own and others. And he'd never seen her look quite so serious. If she was playing... He'd deal with it and kill her for it or something later. He took chances and didn't think. It was his way. Thinking was overrated.

"No, no do over. No need for one. No need for asking, either, love. You should already know. If you want one, you've got one."

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-04 03:19 am (UTC)(link)
Yes, she had been full of bullshit then, down in the Hellmouth, hadn't she? He'd seen it as clear as he could see his own hand if he were to wave it in front of his face. Spike didn't know what he was more startled by now, though, the fact that she was actually offering this - asking this or the fact that she was genuinely sincere about it. Part of him felt like he'd wake up any minute from some mockery of a dream, for it wasn't like he hadn't had those before. His mind liked to taunt him, especially now that there was a soul attached to it, which just made the kind of fucked up dreams he was capable of producing all the more special. (Special, of course, being code for 'horrifying' and something he would sooner walk into traffic than admit was bothersome.)

"You sure about this? 'Cause I'm not in the mood to play push-me-pull-you or whatever it was we were doing back then. If you want to do this, then we're going to do it the way it should be and not like we're having secret club meetings where instead of a secret handshake, I get punched in the face while you scamper off."

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-04 04:40 am (UTC)(link)
Spike reached out, placing his fingers gently under her chin and tipping her face up so that she would be forced to meet his eyes. "No playing, then. No games, no secrets and subterfuge. ...yes." His fingers trailed along the line of her jaw to her ear, where he traced the shell of it with his fingertips and slipped his hand against her hair.

"Your call, love. You've already seen my cards. Showed them to you long ago."

so fitting.

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-04 05:02 am (UTC)(link)
Spike was well aware of how many saw the sparks between them. John Hart, Jack Sparrow - hell, he suspected even that doctor saw it. He'd either denied it or hadn't acknowledged it, for a variety of reasons that were largely wanting to not fall back on old habits he hadn't sought out for a reason after he was de-ghostified and not wanting to deal with her outrage for letting on that there was something going on that wasn't there. Yet, apparently Spike had been wrong about that. There was something going on, he'd just missed it because seeing something there like this was such a shot in the dark that trying to aim and shoot hadn't been worth it.

Yet, here she was. Cards on the table, wanting him. Wanting him. If this was a dream, he was going to kill someone. ...more someone's.

"I already said yes, love. Don't need to keep on trying to convince me."

[identity profile] univalent.livejournal.com 2010-08-04 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
To be fair, Spike was half expecting that knee-jerk reaction in the face of such naked truth. He'd been wound up tense, prepared to take a hit and was honestly surprised with himself for not flinching away when she reached up. Perhaps it had been because her hand had been relaxed, fingers out instead of curled into her palm in a fist ready to strike. Once her intentions became clear, he rather happily met her halfway in that kiss, letting actions, rather than words, show just what this offer - no, this request of hers meant to him. Neither were very good with words. Best to let that which wasn't their futile attempts at making the English language work for them do the expressing.

And express he did, with unabashed fervor as he gathered her into his arms and held her in place, kissing her like he hadn't ever before.