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Dad...you're a Sith Lord waiting to happen...
Who: Anakin, Luke, Obi-Wan, Leonardo, Ami, and Adele
What: Discussing Anakin's future
When: March 25th, Around 7:00 in the evening
Where: Community Building 5, Room 24
Summary: Trying to tell Anakin about Palpatine without him flipping out...
Rating: PG/PG-13 Possible strong language...
[Luke's been preparing this for some time now. He's taken time to talk to quite a few people a bout this and its been almost unanimously agreed that Anakin needs to know whats coming in his own future. Someone undoubtedly would tell him, and by all accounts it was best if the bad news came from Luke rather than a stranger.
Earlier in the day, he had sent messages to Anakin, Obi-Wan, Leonardo, Ami, and Adele, asking each of them to arrive around 7:00, and that they had something extremely important they needed to discuss. He'd laid out tea, cleaned up his droid-related mess, and had stashed his lightsabers in his bedroom. However, against one wall he had left his cortosis fiber staff, as a hopefully last resort if something went much worse than he expected. As another precaution, Luke's journal is open in an unobtrusive corner, set to an Unhackable filter to Lupin.
Settling in to wait, Luke sank heavily into a chair...hoping everything would go alright]
What: Discussing Anakin's future
When: March 25th, Around 7:00 in the evening
Where: Community Building 5, Room 24
Summary: Trying to tell Anakin about Palpatine without him flipping out...
Rating: PG/PG-13 Possible strong language...
[Luke's been preparing this for some time now. He's taken time to talk to quite a few people a bout this and its been almost unanimously agreed that Anakin needs to know whats coming in his own future. Someone undoubtedly would tell him, and by all accounts it was best if the bad news came from Luke rather than a stranger.
Earlier in the day, he had sent messages to Anakin, Obi-Wan, Leonardo, Ami, and Adele, asking each of them to arrive around 7:00, and that they had something extremely important they needed to discuss. He'd laid out tea, cleaned up his droid-related mess, and had stashed his lightsabers in his bedroom. However, against one wall he had left his cortosis fiber staff, as a hopefully last resort if something went much worse than he expected. As another precaution, Luke's journal is open in an unobtrusive corner, set to an Unhackable filter to Lupin.
Settling in to wait, Luke sank heavily into a chair...hoping everything would go alright]
Ohohoho, man.
He wasn't ready.]
"She... she died in childbirth. There were complications. She lived long enough to name the children."
[... Long enough to tell me there was good in you. Long enough to give me a piece of her that I was too blind to understand the significance of.]
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No. Nononono. He... failed. Again. Why could he never be powerful enough to save them?
He can feel himself start to break and for that moment, the Dark Side starting to rise within him is a welcome feeling. He can't live without Padmé. It's too devastating to even comprehend and there's a piece of Anakin that dies with those words. He cradles his head in his hands, choking on a sob. He wants to scream and to rage and to reach through the Force to break things in a tantrum. And it's starting to build within him to do just that. All the emotions begin to burn inside him, causing a few objects in the apartment to being to shake.]
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"Anakin."
[He calmly reaches over and rests a hand on Anakin's shoulder, meeting his eyes, stern yet even, calm.]
"Listen to me. I know it hurts, but you can control your rage. You are better than this."
ohhhhhhhdear and we take the downward turn
Listen to me. It's painful to hear this. But your chance of stopping it isn't this way. Your chance of stopping it, is to change something. And you can only change your own decisions.
[You can't save her by breaking this room and going into the Darkness that contributed to the tragedy in the first place. You can only stop it by a new path.]
You can't walk the path they told you about, if you want to stop the tragedy.
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[It doesn't matter what is said now. No matter what changes Anakin makes, no matter his choices? It will play out as it already has, as it must. But telling him that would not keep him calm, and telling him to be calm will not make him calm. Forcing control? Will not help. He wishes to vent, he wants a target and considering who is closest? It would be Ben.
Shit. And this wasn't helping. Fear begets fear, anxiety reinforces paranoia. Death here lasts only a week.]
For you, she yet lives.
[Better to focus on when he would return, rather than what would happen. Especially since he would remember none of it.] When you leave this place? You return to her. And you might be happy for some time.
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Anakin slowly lifts his head, turning his attention to Obi-Wan. Maybe he wasn't better than this, Master. You know he turns to the Dark Side—is that why you avoided him all these weeks? Will you just up and leave him again once they're done here? Maybe he doesn't want to control his anger.]
Am I? [It's like the hand on his shoulder almost burns. A distraught yell is the only warning given before Anakin lashes out at Obi-Wan, shoving the man away harshly with his mechanical arm and also the aid of the Force.]
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His expression does not change. He turns to face Anakin, still serious, but still calm.]
"Yes. You always have been."
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When Anakin's tantrum began, Luke did nothing, merely allowed his father to vent. He knew that Anakin would need to vent, and didn't think he could stop him. When he struck Obi-Wan, however, Luke stood up for the first time since the others had entered the room. He stepped between his father and Obi-Wan and laid his own mechanical hand on Anakin's shoulder.]
Father. You must quell your anger.
[Luke's tone was even, warm, and gentle. He knew far better than Obi-Wan just what it was like to lose control, and that sometimes anger was appropriate. But to strike another in a rage for trying to help wasn't acceptable.]
Obi-Wan is right. Ami is right. If you give in, then you risk undoing even the possibility of a happy ending. You are better than this.
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But Luke's hand on his shoulder gets Anakin to stand down, even if his emotions were still burning within him like a furnace. He cradles his face in his hands again, ashamed and upset and just... lost.
He wanted them all to just go away.]
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They're right. You are better than this Anakin. It's hard but...don't give in to the anger.
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Its alright, Anakin. I know you're feeling lost, and confused. Believe me, I've been there. But you don't have to give in to the rage. Here, you've been given a chance to do the right thing, and walk the Light path. Be strong, Anakin, and things can be set to rights. The Dark Side can't save Padme, but if you let go of your anger, and don't let fear cloud your judgement then you can find a way.
[A pause]
We. Together, all of us. WE can find a way.
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He takes a deep breath, nodding slowly.]
It's hard. All I can do is try—for her. And for you and your sister. I just... I don't even know where to begin. [He's so lost right now. How much time does he even have?]
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You've already taken the first step. Learning from, and focusing your anger into something productive. Thats the most important step, letting go of your fury, and channeling that into a conduit for the Light.
[Yes, he said that Obi-Wan. Gape away!]
There is a furnace in you, Anakin, as there is in me. The Force is strong in our family. But managing that power isn't something that comes easily. Release that anger, let it go. This isn't the place for it. In time, I'm sure the Force will guide us towards a solution.
For now, all we can do is accept that we are fortunate to have each other. [He gestures to everyone in the room] I asked the others to come not because I was worried you'd lose your temper, but because I wanted you to know that these are people who can help you, and that you can count on. Each one of them has something special. Wisdom, insight, experience, serenity. I feel that together, we can begin to take steps to prevent the bleakness of my past and your future.
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He is fortunate. So very fortunate for Luke, and for all of them, really. Though he doesn't turn his attention away from Luke, Anakin can still sense the others' presence in the room and he acknowledges it. He hadn't even known most of them for very long, but here they were to offer some support. He doesn't really know what to say anymore. They all had to witness that outburst as he started to break. And Obi-Wan... he didn't deserve to be lashed out at like that, at all. How could he have done that to the man who was his best friend?
He's emotionally drained and can't really muster up more than a murmur when he speaks again.]
Thank you. All of you. I don't know what more I can say.
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He nods at Anakin's murmur too.]
You don't need to say anything.
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[Obi-Wan tries to meet Anakin's eye. Tries to find some hint, however small, of the trust that Anakin used to have in him.]
"You're my brother, Anakin. I love you."
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He's really screwed everything up, hasn't he? And now here he was, in a pathetic, miserable mess from his own decisions.
Anakin looks up at Obi-Wan, meeting his eyes. His face contorts into anguish again and he's barely able to hold his composure. He's so sorry. Sorry for being such an ungrateful brat, sorry for completely failing you and letting you down. He can't hold the gaze for long, having to drop his head in shame. It takes him a few seconds before he's able to speak again.]
How can you even still say that? I've let you down. If I just would have listened—[If he wouldn't have been so selfish and egotistical. He took everything for granted.] I'm sorry, Obi-Wan.
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[Her voice is soft, gentle. Kinder than her earlier statements. Adele doesn't approach, this is something between Luke, Ben, and Anakin. This family that fate rent asunder.]
We cannot change the past. No one can, nor should we wish to do so. All anyone can do work to do better in the future. And here? You will not be alone in this.
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No Adele, thats not quite true. Anakin, Obi-Wan, and myself? We are a family. A family united by the Force.
[Taking some initiative, he offers a hand to both Anakin and Obi-Wan]
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This is not the time to dwell on the cruel twist Luceti gives to that thought. After all, despite her qualms, she has never given up looking for ways to carry those precious memories back with them all - and she never will stop.]
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It was the way things should have always been between them. Loyal servants of the Republic and the Order, faithful companions, and somehow never taking themselves or anything around them too seriously.]
"Family. I think I could deal with that."
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The corner of his mouth even twitches into a faint smile. He nods.]
I think I can too.