[Teddy was just about to apologize and leave when Billy spoke up, instead making him grip the sleeves of his shirt and grit his teeth. He feels like such a jerk right now... even if he finally, finally let everything out. And this - this is a better explanation than just saying he was crazy and that was it. Even if it hurts to hear his doubts presented this way, because he knows, he knows it's better to believe, he knows that thinking otherwise is ridiculous and idiotic. But...]

I did believe it. But - three, four weeks is a long time, Billy... It felt like I lost my hold on everything I believed in with every day after that, even though I tried to hold it with both hands, because -

[Because it's about the thing he believes in the most. It's all he has. And isn't that worth fighting for? And he'd fought, he just... lost, slowly.]

I thought - I still think - that it was all me. Maybe - I don't know, I did something along the way. Showed some side of myself that you didn't like... Was it because I fought with you sometimes? I know we disagreed on some things, but I thought we always worked it all out... Maybe my stupid jokes got too stupid? I know you get exasperated... I kept thinking about it, you know how much I think, and I just wasn't... getting any answers. I've spent my whole life changing for people... [There are tears that trickle down his cheeks, not that Billy can see it, with Teddy's back turned to him.] I just thought...