Of course it would be. You did something terrible, didn't you? Apologizing isn't supposed to be easy.

[He gets it, he does. He'd turned the lives of dozens of people upside down- people he cared about, people he loved, people who'd trusted him. Some had forgiven him, others hadn't. And some were gone before he could find out if the ever would.

Months later, it's still hard.]

But it isn't fair to leave it like this. To pretend you didn't do it, or... to run away from the truth. It isn't right.