padme_amidala: (t h e calm b e f o r e the s t o r m)
Padmé Naberrie Amidala Skywalker ([personal profile] padme_amidala) wrote in [community profile] lucetilogs2014-08-10 06:47 pm

( Closed )

Who: Anakin and Padmé
What: A very determined Senator is chasing the Jedi she loves best.
When: A week ago.
Where: The farm.
Summary: Love isn't easy.
Rating: PG-13 for darker themes.
The woman who had infinite patience for her people fought herself for days in order to leave her husband to his thoughts. Every morning she woke, expecting to find him beside her and every night she only managed to fall asleep once she had thoroughly exhausted herself. Exhaustion was the only thing that gave her a respite from constantly imagining Anakin suffering alone.

However the time finally came when she couldn't stand to be away from him for a moment longer. She briefly collected her thoughts, cloaked herself - for anonymity - and left the house. Her steps took her through the village streets as silently as a ghost. The first place she visited was the farm where she knew Anakin would throw himself into work to forget his pain.

They shared that trait.

Pausing in the middle of the odds and ends, she kept her silence. Calling his name might give her away - he was trying to stay away from her, after all - yet that was probably a lost cause. The Force would inform him of her presence.

Suppressing a sigh, she moved around one robot and then another, holding her cloak close to her body. As the sun set, she looked more and more like a shadow moving independently of the fading light.
ignite_the_stars: (losing my religion)

[personal profile] ignite_the_stars 2014-08-11 01:47 am (UTC)(link)
Anakin held strong convictions but he really did have a weakness for Padmé. He felt her approach towards the farm and didn’t leave. He knew she was coming and thought he could just stay on the other side of it while she looked for him. But then he needed something from the area she was in and he reasoned he could just go retrieve the item without crossing paths with her…

Little by little his conviction caved to the desire to just see Padmé again until he finally was standing before her telling himself he was doing this just to ask her not to come see him again… but even that was a weak thought compared to the pounding of his heart.

“Padmé…” he took a step and then stopped.
ignite_the_stars: (hug)

[personal profile] ignite_the_stars 2014-08-11 08:25 am (UTC)(link)
All of Anakin’s resolve to do what he thought was right and necessary melted away when Padmé rushed to embrace him. The weight of her body against his and in his arms was deceptively soothing. Now that she was here he didn’t want to ever let go of her.

“I missed you,” he said. Even though he knew it would make it that much harder to let her go. “I wish you could stay.”
ignite_the_stars: (my angel)

[personal profile] ignite_the_stars 2014-08-18 09:53 am (UTC)(link)
“But you should blame me, Padmé.” He pulled back enough to look down at her. He wanted her to stay with him, but he wanted her to stay alive more than that. “I’m dangerous- you told me, I attack you. That is my fault.”
ignite_the_stars: (losing my religion)

[personal profile] ignite_the_stars 2014-08-21 12:17 am (UTC)(link)
“No, Padmé.” He took a step back from her to give him the space he needed to not get lost in her touch again. “My mind isn’t clear. I can’t think about those last few without feeling like the ground is dropping out from under me. I don’t know what are my thoughts and what are his. And even without that- the Jedi have been saying it for years. I’m dangerous.”
ignite_the_stars: (left)

[personal profile] ignite_the_stars 2014-08-21 12:43 am (UTC)(link)
It was interesting indeed what he had internalized from his time with the Jedi.

“What?” Anakin shook his head. “I don’t care about politics- I don’t like politics. I care about you. I don't want to hurt you.”

Obi-Wan had said it best when he said Anakin wasn’t loyal to causes or principles or ideals – he was loyal to people. And right now he wanted Padmé to be safe.

Though, he would readily agree Palpatine as Emperor and the fall of the Republic was a terrible tragedy. He just didn’t think in terms of if he supported democracy or not – he thought in terms of the people he cared about and what they needed.
ignite_the_stars: (losing my religion)

[personal profile] ignite_the_stars 2014-08-21 08:19 pm (UTC)(link)
“That’s not what I want.” He shook his head. The last thing he wanted was to enter politics – loving Padmé was as close as he wanted to get to all of that. “I just want you safe.”

And Anakin wasn’t convinced he was absolved from anything just because it hadn’t happened yet for him.

“But they have happened – for Luke and Leia. That mattes, that counts. We don’t get to change anything back home. I’m still the same person, I’m still a danger to everyone.”
ignite_the_stars: (left)

[personal profile] ignite_the_stars 2014-08-22 09:43 am (UTC)(link)
Anakin felt a spike of anger at that; because he knew that Leia was pushing him away, she didn’t want to get to know him, and she did not see him as her father. He could feel it through the Force. Saying otherwise hurt on so many levels – it ignored the truth and played him like some kind of fool.

“Padmé, stop telling me that! Stop trying to lie to me about Leia, I know she doesn’t want to know me- she doesn’t consider me her father! Stop trying thinking I’m some gullible idiot who can’t see what’s right in front of him.”
ignite_the_stars: (devistated)

[personal profile] ignite_the_stars 2014-08-25 08:51 pm (UTC)(link)
“That not what I’m getting at, Padmé.” He hadn’t judged Leia’s contempt for him he was only pointing out the way things were. “Just because you say it, doesn’t make it true. She doesn’t love me, she doesn’t want to know me, so stop trying to lie to me about it. You were given a gift, I wasn’t.”
ignite_the_stars: (devistated)

[personal profile] ignite_the_stars 2014-08-26 09:02 pm (UTC)(link)
“Padmé-”

Before learning about his future he’d believed there would always be hope, a way for things to work out right. But his future was too bleak; there was no hope in all of that. And he couldn’t look at his daughter and pretend everything would eventually work out, he couldn’t delude himself about that. All he would be doing was delaying the heartache.

But he held onto Padmé because her arms comforted him. He needed to hear he was loved over and over again until he could convince himself he deserved it. That was a long way off still.

“You shouldn’t be here. You should go back.”
ignite_the_stars: (trust your feelings)

[personal profile] ignite_the_stars 2014-08-29 12:07 pm (UTC)(link)
When Padmé started to pull away, it took all of Anakin’s will power to let her go. He wanted to resist and pull her close, to go back on his decision to stay away from her. It was painful letting his arms fall.

Even so, his hand caught Padmé’s before she withdrew it to maintain this fleeting connection. He knew if he spoke he would cave and beg her to stay.

He nodded and then let go of her hand.