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[fullmetal alchemist] (bbi) "pride"

Another day (CLOSED)

Who: Pride, Greed, and anyone that wants to join
What: Wrestling with emotions
When: Sunset
Where: The forest
Summary: Pride confronts a few things about himself. Oh the emotional rollercoaster.
Rating: PG 13

Pride looked around his room as he lay upon his bed. His mind was flooded with thoughts and he didn't really know how to handle them. He pulled himself up onto his feet and walked out of the room and down the hallway. Not really wanting to disturb the others, he made his way down the hall, down the stairs, and out the front door. With a heavy sigh, he took off towards the forest. When he had arrived, he went into the thicket, walking a long a path that looked as though it had became overgrown with brush. He continued walking a long the path which lead up to a grassy green hill that overlooked much of the environment below. He took a seat on the lush green grass and stared out at his surroundings while the sun began to set.

"Damn it..." He murmured to himself as he pressed his hands upon the ground, leaning back slightly as he sat with his legs crossed. "I'm not supposed to be feeling like this. I'm not supposed to feel guilty about things, nor am I even supposed to have these problems. This isn't right. They call me Pride for a reason. I can't let simple things get to me. I'm not a fucking human. I'm a homunculus.." He thought to himself about how things had went on with Envy over the past few days and also about the time that he had spent with Greed. "Maybe I was too hard on Envy...No...No..What the hell am I saying? I need to get a hold of myself. I'm not a damn human. I shouldn't be feeling like this. "And what happened between Greed and I was..." He let out a small sigh and closed his eyes for a moment as a cool breeze greeted him.

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Izumi had been keeping up hope after her conversation with Duo at his pizza shop. Hope that Edward Elric and his brother were here...and yet apprehensive. What were those two doing here? Had the Malnosso completely stripped them of their ability to use alchemy as well? She couldn't understand this enemy, nor did she especially want to. She was dead, but she would help the brothers escape if she ever found a way. But the fact that someone had disappeared in an attempt to organize a rebellion worried her. Where did the people who disappeared go? Back to their worlds? Were they -killed-? But in this place, it seemed as though death wasn't permanent. She had heard through the grapevine what had happened to Riza Hawkeye. While she had no great love of the military, Izumi was hardened by the fact that the girl's memories had been completely wiped from her mind. An entire lifetime, gone in a moment...

As she came from the forest, out onto the hill, she dropped the basket of fruit she had brought from the forest in dull surprise. Edward...it -had- to be, and yet...something was wrong. His hair being loose about his shoulders had nothing to do with it...he was dressed like that homunculus--the one who had taken her son away from her. And those red markings...he couldn't be. Not Edward. He would tear his soul apart if he had to escape such a fate.

But caution was in her nature. She fought off her urge to be pleasant to him. "Edward...? Is that you?"

Greed had heard Pride leave, and being bored, had decided to follow him outside. He kept himself hidden and quiet as he followed Pride into the forest. He almost snorted when he heard what Pride was talking about in his mind. Feeling guilty about Envy? How could he? And what about him and Greed? What was wrong about that? But all those thoughts stopped when he noticed the Izumi woman standing there. He'd met her briefly in his own world. He hadn't realized that she was here too. But the fact that she thought Pride was Edward...that would prove to have interesting results.

He was lost in his thoughts. His mind drifting as he sat there upon the hill. Staring down at his hands. When he had heard Izumi's voice, he snapped out of his daze, and gave her a glance. He shrugged and lowered his head slightly. "No...Not Edward.." He said as a few of his golden locks fell down in front of his face. He didn't move from where he was sitting. He just kept his eyes upon Izumi for a moment before looking off into the distance again.

"It's beautiful, isn't it? The way how the sun is about to vanish off into the horizon?" He asked and laughed at himself. "I never thought I would ever take enjoyment in something so trivial." A small sigh had escaped from his lips. "If you are looking for Edward, him and Alphonse are in town somewhere. Or that's what I heard at least." He said and bent his knees, wrapping his arms around them and hugging them to his chest then resting his chin atop of them.

Her eyes were still on the crimson lines swirling on his skin. She couldn't believe that Edward of all people would give in to an existence like that... He was headstrong, and the proverbial pain in the ass, but to become a homunculus? She supposed it really -wouldn't- be his fault if it happened. The fault of whoever had done this terrible thing to him. But it made no sense. If this Edward was here, and there was another in town...

"The sun may disappear, but it will always be back the next morning." She was still cautious, slowly getting closer. "And even then, not even the night is entirely dark. There's the stars, and the moon most nights. The moon gets its light from the sun...so even in darkness, there is still the hope of morning."

A philosophical bent, but she didn't care. Something was wrong here. Very wrong. "Who did this to you...?"

Greed dropped down from his hiding spot in the tree and stood between Izumi and Pride. "Who cares about there being morning? Night's way more fun." He grinned as he crossed his arms haughtily. "And does it matter who did it to him? Maybe he chose to be what he is." He didn't like this woman. He couldn't remember who she was, but she looked familiar. Not that it really mattered. She was getting too close to Pride, who was obviously not feeling himself at the moment, and that just wasn't sitting well with Greed.

He gave a small nod at Izumi's words. He agreed with them for the most part. However, when he was about to answer her question and Greed had interrupted their conversation, he was a bit surprised because he had no idea that the other sin was lurking around. He stayed in the same place, sitting there, still not moving. He was in a bit of an indifferent mood. Not enjoying how these feelings were getting to him. Not liking them at all in fact.

"I suppose it was half my fault for ending up like this. Or moreso Edward's. The exchange wasn't enough. The price was too high and in turn, when it came to pay up, he had to deliver the only thing that he had left." He said as he finally stood up slowly and looked at Izumi. His eyes vacant and distant, almost empty. Not like Edward's at all which were so full of life. He brushed a few strands of hair away from his face and looked down at the ground. "He wanted something that he couldn't ultimately have. But I guess that's normal for most of you humans, isn't it? Always chasing after a dream that you can never quite grasp hold of?"

She recoiled at the sudden entrance of...oh, -no-. Not -him- again. That bastard who was trying to use Al for...oh God knows what, she couldn't remember. It had been a very long, agonizing few years since then. She stepped back from both homunculi, her body tense. She knew she couldn't take them both down, but...it seemed that whichever Sin Ed had become wasn't even remotely interested.

Those eyes...so -dead-. So unlike Edward. Whatever had happened, had it been enough to completely destroy Ed's personality? "Humans may chase after impossible dreams, but it gives them hope. It gives them a reason to live. Just like...this one here. He has a dream of owning everything. Which may seem dangerous and foolish to others, but it's his dream. And in your case...it probably gives you something to do with your eternity, doesn't it."

She had to ask. "What transmutation are you talking about?"

Greed laughed at Izumi's little speech. "Hope? Dreams? I don't dream of owning everything. I do own it. I get to take whatever I want whenever I want. Like Pride for example. He's mine. Which is why you shouldn't be talking to him. Or asking questions." He didn't like her asking so many questions. It wasn't any of that woman's business. "And Pride," He glanced back at the Sin with a growl, "Don't go spilling secrets to just anyone."

There was an awkward softness that started to show in Pride. It was strange, but he understood what Izumi was saying. "So it's like..If you have nothing to desire or want in life..No goals to achieve, then life isn't worth living.." He said in a quiet voice yet still loud enough to hear. "The transmutation was..."

He stopped instantly taking Greed's warning for what is was worth. He gave a small shrug, maybe he was saying too much? His eyes lowered to the ground and curiosity started to get the best of him. "Why do you care anyways?" He asked Izumi. His words sounding bittersweet. If it were anyone else he probably would have lashed out at her, but there was something warm and comforting about Izumi that Pride couldn't quite put his finger on. With a heavy sigh, he took another glance at the sun as it was setting, almost gone now.

She dropped her prodding at Greed's request, although she couldn't refuse answering Pride's question. It didn't matter what he was, to her. He was still Edward to her, and he always would be. But to have no memory of -anything- that had happened...not even remembering Alphonse? This was a mockery of everything good and decent. Ed would never do anything to further any sort of agenda of his. Everything he did, everything he was, was for his younger brother.

"You were my student. As was your brother Al. Do you remember? I was harsh with both of you...but I taught you everything I know about alchemy, and about life." She managed a slight smile. "In my eyes...you two were just as much my sons as my own child."

She ignored Greed, stepping forward to embrace Pride around his shoulders, just as she had done when she had seen the two of them that evening so long ago, when she saw the damage caused by the failed human transmutation of their mother. "I still love both of you."

Greed shoved the woman away roughly, taking Pride's wrist in his hand and not letting go. "Bitch." He spat, all signs of his trademark grin gone. "He's not Ed. He's mine and you have no right to touch my things. Get the fuck away from here before I rip your wings off your back in the most slow and painful way possible." He held up his hand, letting his shield show.

His eyes widened when Izumi had hugged him. It had put him into a complete state of shock. This affection was something completely new to the sin. However, his eyes had almost widened to the size of saucers when Greed had pulled him away. He could feel his other half screaming at him now. Edward. He was trying to break through again. Pride shook his head and shrugged as he stood beside Greed. He knew that if him and the other homunculus were to stay there that it would probably veer into a fight. Edward was pleading inside his mind with Pride not to let that happen. For once, he did as his better side had requested instead of pushing him back and locking him away.

"Lets go.." Pride said as he looked at Greed. He frowned at Izumi, "Edward and Alphonse are in town. I'm not Edward. He...I..." He stuttered and a few locks of hair fell down in front of his eyes. "My name is Pride...And I'm a homunculus." He stated then turned to leave, hoping that the other sin would follow. He didn't want there to be a fight for the sake of his other half and the other Elric brothers in town. He hated these damn emotions that were finally getting to him and tried to shut them off, but even so, they continued to swell and stir within himself.

Izumi recovered her balance quickly, glaring daggers into that metal monstrosity's head. She stood back at a good distance and turned her gaze to Pride. "If you're Pride, and you were made from Edward, then there has to be something left of him. Just like there was something left of my son! Why are you hanging around something like Greed, huh? He's nothing but a pathetic, delusional man who thinks he owns everything. But he can never own people's souls. He can't own the Gate. He can't even own his own -remains-.

"Is this what you're going to do, Pride? Let him treat you like a thing of -his-? You -are- Pride, aren't you? So why don't you start acting like it? Take pride in everything I ever taught Edward, take pride in the fact that his brother would do -anything- for him...and you. You're ten times the person that Greed can ever be!"

Greed had been about to turn around and follow Pride back to the house. If the other sin didn't want to fight, then he wouldn't. But then the stupid woman had to open her stupid fucking mouth again. Greed was on her in a second, pinning her to a tree, growling.

"You stupid fucking bitch." He hissed, slamming her harder against the tree. "Don't talk about what you don't fucking know. You're the nothing. You did the worst thing imaginable. You created one of us. Don't look down on your own fucking mistakes, you stupid bitch."

He was about to lose it. Fighting with his other half now as he watched Izumi and Greed. This was what he wanted to avoid. They could have simply left and things would have been alright, but they had to escalate to this. His mind was jumbled with thoughts, words, and screams. Then as he closed his eyes there were the visions of that damn gate. A loud scream came ripping from off of his lips as he collapsed onto the ground beneath him. His fingers dug into the soil and back arched. "I'm not going to let you....."

He sputtered, his voice filled with rage. "You fucking little brat, you need to stay gone..." Pride's eyes opened when it had started, the summoning of the transmutation circle. Damn that Edward, what the hell was he up to? He instantly backed away, trying to fight it off, scrambling backwards. "You son of a bitch!"

"You think I don't know what I did? I think about it every -day-, you bastard. I know I should have kept him by my side. I let what I thought I knew about your kind cloud my judgment and my instincts. And I've come to terms with the fact that he will never forgive me. But that doesn't mean I love him any less! Before I died, he came to know that too."

Already counting on Greed's distraction, Izumi began pulling herself out of his grasp. She was not a weak woman by any standards...years of hard physical training herself had primed her muscles for just this kind of encounter. And she wasn't about to be pushed around by Greed. She fought her way out of his grip completely and stood by Pride, keeping her eyes on Greed.

"How empty do you think you'll feel, Pride, if Edward's gone for good? Neither of you will be a complete person without the other. Why don't you just accept each other and become one person? It's better than being connected only by that mark, like Greed and Envy!"

Greed couldn't stand her anymore. It was her fault Pride was in pain and he wasn't going to put up with it. While she was busily trying to talk him into accepting his other half, Greed reached around and pulled about six feathers violently from her back. "Get the fuck away from him! You don't even know what you're talking about!" He yanked her away from Pride, throwing her to the ground, pinning her there and refused to be distracted by Pride's screaming. "I still know plenty about my old self. And y'know what? I hate it." He punched her none-too-gently in the stomach. "You're a stupid bitch and if you know what's good for you, you'll leave him the fuck alone." With diverting his attention in the least, he growled to Pride, "Get the fuck away from here...NOW."

He stayed there on the ground, his mind in a complete fog. Should he just give in and let Edward fight and betray the other sin, or should he allow this to continue? pulled himself up onto his feet and shook his head. "I can't..." He sputtered and could feel himself on the verge of a breakdown. He couldn't let the woman that Edward had known so well be killed right in front of him. It would be a disgrace. He rushed towards Greed and Izumi as he still fought with his other half, using all the strength he could find to push the other sin off of the woman. It wasn't an easy task by any means. Not only was the other sin stronger than him by far, but the state of mind that Pride/Ed was in had weakened him greatly. Edward was screaming at him inside of his head to go for the wings, but Pride wouldn't allow it because the older sin meant too much to him. He crouched down beside Izumi. "You should have left when I gave you the chance...Now please....Go...I don't want any useless bloodshed. Not here. Not now."

Pain in her back, pain in her body. It took her a while to be able to look at Pride properly, panting to catch her breath again. She would need to have her torso looked at...the pain of her organs told her what she had already suspected--her body was whole again. At the price of probably never being able to use alchemy again.

She coughed as she looked up into those lifeless eyes...looked -past- them, and knew that Edward was looking back at her. A genuine smile touched her mouth as she got wearily to her feet, staggering a little. Words would just have enraged Greed even more, so she told the homunculus with her eyes--that she knew that he and Edward were so intertwined with each other that to remove one would in a sense "kill" the other. Pride still had Edward's kind and giving heart. Edward had always been willful and...well...proud of his accomplishments. They were part of each other, no matter what.

"I hope you find peace, Pride."

What else could she do in this situation? She ran.

Greed snarled at the sudden interruption of his fight with the bitchy woman. He let the woman go though and turned to Pride with a dark look. "You're weaker than I thought you were. I can't believe you just tried to pick a fight with me of all people." He took Pride by his arm and started draging him through the forest. "I really don't give a shirt how Edward's fucking with your head right now because you are in deep shit." When they reached the house again, he literally threw the other sin into it, not caring what he threw him into.

When the other sin had thrown him, he ended up crashing into the set of chairs that were placed around the kitchen table, knocking all but one over. He lay there still on the floor now, his breathing heavy. "I wasn't about to let you kill her..." He said and began to get up. His palms pressed down upon the floor, legs bent, and he jumped up onto his feet. He was a bit off balance at first because of the entire situation.

He took a few quick steps backwards. He knew that he was in for it now since he did indeed betray the other sin and for a human no less. But in this case, Pride had made an exception for Edward. He didn't want to see someone so close to him die. He had already lost Alphonse. He brought up a hand and wiped a few drops of blood away from the split on his lower lip. "I'm not afraid of you..."

"That's your second mistake then." Greed flexed once and shed what bit of human cover he had, letting his shield take over. It was much more frieghtening than anything else he could have done. "You're listening to that annoying voice in the back of your head too much. I guess you really mustn't be that different from Ed."

He took a step back and then another. His heart began to pick up it's pace. What the hell was going on, he had never been this afraid before. He usually greeted situations like this in a calm perspective and was usually the one in control of things. He was usually the villain when it came to playing a game of cat and mouse. But not this time. This time was a completely different situation. He wasn't the one pulling the strings. He took another step back and ended up slamming into a wall. He was too weak to even harness his alchemic abilities, far too weak. At this point he probably couldn't even summon a circle.

The battle that he had with himself back in the forest had almost caused him to fall unconscious because it was so intense. And now he was about to face off with one of the toughest sins? No way in hell. There was only one thing he could do. They both knew it was their weakest points, but he didn't want to take that route. The other sin meant too much to him. "Yeah? And maybe you're not so different from your former self either!"

Greed laughed at him, flexing his claw-hands, "Oh, I know I'm not that different. The thing about Greed is that you want everything. I wanted to be what I am. My body accepted it with a glee like no other homunculi could have. You on the other hand..." He shrugged, taking a step towards him, "The FullMetal shrimp was just as proud as anyone could be. Why would he let someone take over his body?"

The stench of fear was overwhelming. He changed back to his normal Greed self. "Why were you out there in the first fucking place? You just wanted to figure out why you felt so guilty for letting me fuck you?" He'd remembered what Pride had thought aloud.

He blinked and didn't say a word at first. He shook his head at the last question that had been asked. "No.." He said without hesitation in a shaky breath. It was something different other than guilt. Much different. He wouldn't admit it though. He hated feeling like this because he couldn't even begin to describe the emotions. He despised human traits and characteristics. He shrugged then slipped away, starting to walk down the hall.

Greed grabbed Pride's arm before he got very far, pulling him close and holding both arms against Pride's side. "Then what is it?" He asked fairly softly, "I don't like watching you walk off into the forest by yourself. What would you have done if you ran into someone else instead of that woman?" Not that he cared. He didn't. Greed didn't care or need anyone but himself.

He looked away. He couldn't look at Greed directly, so instead he tried to look away from the other sin. "I could have defended myself. I did a decent job of it before you got here. It's not like I'm helpless or anything." He protested and glared at him, trying to break away from the embrace.

"Not like you care anyways." He needed a way out of this conversation, now, or else he wasn't going to be able to keep up that front he had been putting on about not letting anything get to him. "Now do you mind? I'm going to my room. I need to take a shower." He said bluntly. He wanted to avoid conversations like this in the future, he was starting to dig his own grave and didn't want to keep at it.

Greed didn't let go of the smaller body when he demanded to be let go. Instead, he pushed him against the wall, his fingernails digging in, "Don't tell me what I care about. I do mind, actually, since I was talking to you. And for another thing, you weren't doing jack shit. You were letting that stupid woman verbally attack you at your weakest point."

When he ended up being pushed against the wall, the back of his head had hit the surface of it. He cringed slightly. "I was talking time to myself before that woman got there. I needed time to think. Before she even got there I was fine." He was beginning to let his mouth get the best of him. "I don't have to explain anything to you. I can do whatever I want whenever I want." He hissed and pushed the other sin away then continued to walk down the hall and into his room, slamming the door behind himself and uttering some swears as he did.

Greed was slightly stunned, but only slightly. And within a minute, he had kicked open Pride's room and roughly pushed Pride against the wall again. "You have to explain things to me because your mine. Weather you want the damn attention or not is not my concern, but you know what?" He bit down roughly on Pride's neck, gripping a few feather on Pride's wing at the same time, "Unfortunetly, I have enough human to still care about what the fuck happens to idiots like you."

He was taken by surprise completely and a loud gasp escaped from his lips when Greed had sank his teeth into his neck. "I'm not an idiot.." Pride sputtered and tried to push the other sin away again after placing his hands on his shoulders. He wasn't successful at the attempt this time and instead of trying again, he let his hands slide down the older sin's chest and dropped them at his sides. Maybe if he stayed quiet he wouldn't let on to what he was going through. So he did just that, or at least tried to.

He waited, but when no other words were forthcoming, Greed pulled his mouth away from Pride's neck to glare at him slightly. "What the hell is wrong with you? You're more emotional than a pregnant woman." He frowned slightly, "Pfft. You know what? Don't tell me? S'not like I'm supposed to care, right? Maybe I'll just go with that, since you don't like me anymore." He turned away from him, shoving his hands in his pockets as he removed himself from the sin's room.

He glared at Greed. Not liking that insult one bit. He folded his arms across his chest and leaned up against the wall, not wanting to move. However, he did anything but that. He followed Greed and this time he was the one who caught the other off guard. He spun him around and pushed him up against the wall roughly then crashed his lips against the others. After the brief liplock, Pride rested his forehead against Greed's. "I never said that I didn't like you..." He blurted out. His words coming out much too quickly for him to even catch himself before saying them. If he wouldn't have let those emotions get the best of him, he never would have let his real feelings show, but the younger sin couldn't help it. This had been a strange day for him indeed.

Greed wasn't surprised in the least when he was shoved against a wall and kissed roughly, letting his hands rest lightly on Pride's waist. "Then why're you being so bitchy?" He asked with a grin, obviously joking around. It was what Greed did best, after all. Why spend all your time angry and pissed when you could be enjoying life? "I was trying to do something that a caring person might do. Guess I was wrong?"

He shrugged and looked away for a brief moment, averting Greed's eyes. "No I...I.." He stuttered. What the hell was going on with him? How could this be happening? Why was this happening? He was feeling incredibly vulnerable now and instead of hating it, it came as a type of comforting feeling. The emotion that followed being taken care of was one that he wasn't familiar with. He didn't know just how to react or how to simply go a long with it. "I'm sorry...I..Didn't mean anything by it.." He was getting slightly nervous now. In fact, there was a sickening feeling of butterflies in his stomach. He wanted to squash that nervous feeling and lock it away. He was a homunculus, not a damn human. Even so, this feeling seemed inviting. He could have turned and left right there, could have, maybe should have, but didn't. Instead he stayed and locked eyes with the other sin. "Why am I feeling like this? It's...I.." He shook his head. "This is awkward.."

Greed raised an eyebrow and shrugged slightly. "Sorry, I don't think much of what I could say would help you with that." He hesitated, his hands moving in slightly soothing circles at Pride's waist. "Don't say that I don't care though. If I claimed you as mine, then I have to care some."

He had a blank look upon his face for a moment and that soon faded. Afterwards, he wrapped his arms around the other sin, holding onto him and resting his head on his shoulder.

"This..Is all new to me.." He admitted and gave an embarrassed smile. "I always thought humans were inferior to us because they let their lives revolve around emotions..But I suppose emotions aren't that bad of a thing to have." He stopped talking for a minute or so and gave a small smile. "I care about you too. You know, I wouldn't let just anyone get away with claiming me as their own."

Clearing his throat, Greed refused to meet Pride's eyes, his hands still resting lightly. It seemed Greed was a bit embarrassed as well. "We have emotions too, they're just muted quite a lot." He said, trying his hardest to ignore the small crack in his voice. Pride was being affectionate. Not what he had expected.

He enjoyed this feeling. It was something that was warm and comforting. With the smile still upon his face, he placed a hand on the right side of Greed's face gently, finally being able to lock eyes with the other sin. "And who do I belong to again?" He asked, enjoying how the other sin had called him his own.

Greed wanted to pull his face away and toss Pride away, but because it was Pride, he couldn't even think about it. Instead, he growled slightly, "You're mine. All mine." He pulled the sin close to him, giving him a kiss, though it was much more gentle than any kiss he'd given anyone before.

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