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colony_brat ([personal profile] colony_brat) wrote in [community profile] lucetilogs2008-07-15 01:08 am

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Who: Duo Maxwell [livejournal.com profile] colony_brat, James Sunderland [livejournal.com profile] pillows_mcgee
What: Confrontation between James and Duo
When: This afternoon (15th)
Where: Community Building 4, outside James's door
Summary: Duo's concerned about James since he hasn't heard from him for several days so he goes to see James.
Rating: NC-17 (Violence, Language, Sexual Situations, Adult Themes)
It'd been days, a week even, since he'd heard anything about James. He was worried that something might have happened to James or that he hadn't gotten help for his injuries. It was easier to just run over there and check on him than continue to worry that he'd gotten worse or that he'd been kidnapped. He went to James's door, knocked and called out to announce himself. It was an old habit to make sure his gang knew he was safe and so that the other pilots would know that he was safe, not followed. "Hey James! Ya dead in there or what?" Alright, so it wasn't his name, but his voice was hard to mistake. He shifted as he waited for some response from inside.

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-15 06:49 am (UTC)(link)
It wasn't long before there was a slight shifting noise behind the door- then a thump followed by footsteps.

"It's open," The blond man's voice cracks, muffled slightly, "Come."

He might as well have been dead. He's laying crumpled on the scruffy-looking mat on the floor, his leg propped on a pillow. He was fine, really, but he just couldn't be bothered to get up and open the door.

Duo isn't exactly someone he wanted to see, not after their last run in had startled him. Still, he wasn't going to send the poor guy away. Not after all the help-

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-15 07:19 am (UTC)(link)
James winced at the comment. As he expected. Part of him wanted to kick the man out. Make him leave. It's disgusting.

But then- no-

No it had been so long. So long since anyone had wanted him. DON'T TOUCH ME JAMES I'M A MONSTER. GET OUT GET OUT GET OUT.

He was so-

And Duo, he had a subtle figure- soft, round face, long hair- he was young, for sure. But he looked enough- maybe if James closed his eyes. Maybe just for a moment. Most women found him repulsive, anyway. Reaching middle age, flabby, pudgy around the middle.

Something meaningless. It could be, something meaningless and quick. James could take it from him. He could take whatever he needed from anyone.

Maybe he needed this.

He cracked a soft smile.

"To what do I owe the visit?"

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-15 07:44 am (UTC)(link)
James shrugged, looking down at his hands.

"I got one of Itchy's friends to help me. He pulled some of that crazy 'magic' stuff and I feel a bit better now. Still not one-hundred percent but I'm getting there." He manages a wry grin.

"No need to worry about me. I'm a big boy, I can take care of myself." James tried to make nice, tried to push those thoughts from his mind. Still they were there-

"Anyway, thanks for the concern, but as you can see, I'll just be laid up here for a while. Bored as heck, but I figure it's best to just stay put."

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-15 10:36 pm (UTC)(link)
"Oh. Itchy's not actually his name. I just can't really pronounce his real one." James waved a hand dismissively.

The blond man made somewhat of a face.

"You've got to be kidding me. What's with you, anyway?"



Sunderland himself didn't give any inkling of anything being wrong, particularly. He was just his usual, somewhat timid, awkward self.

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-16 07:41 am (UTC)(link)
"I'm not very good with any of that eastern stuff," James admitted a bit sheepishly. He wasn't really that well educated, and he even failed his college Spanish courses for the most part.

A faint frown crossed his features. He wasn't feeling very comfortable. Not in the least.

Marymarymarymarymary

"Know how to play speed?" It was the only card game James had ever learned. He seemed to be resisting the jokes, passing them off, however much they made him want to wrap his fingers around the young man's neck and squeeze and squeeze justcrushhimsoeasily

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-16 08:34 am (UTC)(link)
James shrugged softly. He wasn't much of a teacher, and he had little patience. Slowly he huffed and laid back onto the pillow he'd had previously bunched under his neck.

"Alright, sure. I'll teach you. Grab those cards from the table in the kitchen, would ya? Spare an old, gimpy man some walking." Old, lazy man would have been more accurate. Something still swimming, just at the back of his mind. The attention certainly wasn't-

Who didn't want to be wanted? Especially at his age- his stature-

The only one who ever loved you was MARYMARYɯɐɹʎ

He could use him. He could get whatever he wanted just pulling this guy along- Sure he wasn't homosexual in the least but maybe just something somethingsomething easily taken and never spoke of not ever not ever NOT EVER AGAIN.

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-17 02:27 am (UTC)(link)
"Well I'm ten years short of bein' over the hill," Such a normal conversation, it was almost mocking.

If Duo was graceful, James was at the other end of the spectrum. Blunt, slow, entirely out-of-shape. He'd probably never seen the inside of a gym in his life. The love-handles were proof enough of the fact that for fifteen years he'd worked a desk job, supplemented with black coffee and donuts. Moreso the donuts than anything else. When Mary had fallen ill, James had simply stopped caring all together.

"It's on the left there, the blue box." He called after the younger man.

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-17 04:57 am (UTC)(link)
A brief moment passed in which James could close his eyes and pretend to listen to the other man talk, giving generic responses of 'hmm'.

As Duo returned, James reluctantly rolled off his pillow onto his side, propping his head up with one hand and snatched the box of cards from the brunette.

Then a deadpan look.

"How what huh? I don't think I follow"

Justtakeittakeittakeittakeitfromhimnownevermarymarymary

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-17 06:27 am (UTC)(link)
"You sure are a strange guy," James made a bit of a face. He wasn't exactly sure if Duo's just messing with him or if he was entirely sincere-

Either way it wasn't really an opportunity that James has been presented with.

Either way, with his mental state, he wasn't particularly fit to deal with it.

"I can't believe you don't know how to play speed," He didn't feel like explaining the rules, really, "Do you know Go Fish? Please tell me you know how to play that."

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-17 07:05 am (UTC)(link)
"So you grew up in a church?" for once James made an intuitive connection. Brilliant deduction, in his mind, really.

Carefully, he placed the deck of cards on his knee, taking half the stack and shifting it over the top, then repeating the motion in his palm, once, twice, three times.

"Well now you've seen someone shuffle one handed," He smirked, secretly satisfied at the chance to show off the somewhat boring parlor trick he'd learned during his days spent in the military (however brief it was).

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-17 07:28 am (UTC)(link)
James puffed up a bit.

"Not bad eh? Glad somebody still thinks I'm cool." A soft chuckle followed, but his face quickly faded back to the normal misery, and he began to deal the cards.

"War huh? Well I guess you gotta count yourself lucky to be alive, huh?" He finally sat entirely upright, his bad leg extended and the other he used to prop an arm on.

Idly, James examined his hand.

"You can go first."

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-17 08:06 am (UTC)(link)
"Hell, if you get out of war alive you're counted lucky." James shook his head, looking down at his unimpressive hand, sorting it carefully, holding a couple of cards between his teeth as he tried to get everything in order.

It wasn't until Duo was seriously invading his personal space that he looked up, leaning back slightly.

The cards fell from his mouth.

"Uhm. I-"

Awkward.

"I don't know... Ah..."

Don't you wanna touch me, James?

See?

I'm real.

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-17 09:01 am (UTC)(link)
Well one thing was certain. He had James plenty flustered. It was obvious though, that the blond wasn't exactly the forward type.

It's just that it had been so long.

Nobody would have to know...

"I uh-" He stammered, hastily gathering up the cards.

This guy- he was coming on strong. The older man began to wonder just what his game was, exactly. If he truly was pitching for the other team or if he was just...

Trying to mess with him.

"I uh- got uh- you got any threes?" A quiet effort to return his environment to normal.

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-17 09:34 am (UTC)(link)
James took the card, though showing little reaction to the forced contact. It did make him uncomfortable.

He sighed. Thats it, enough playing around.

"Just what exactly are you after, man?" He put on his best deadpan expression. He's never been good with playing games. Never, not a charming man, nor was he flirty in the least.

Still, he sat, looking only slightly annoyed and feeling distinctly that he was being toyed with.

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-17 09:56 am (UTC)(link)
The older man threw down his cards with a frazzled huff.

"That's not what I mean, dammit and you know it."

Grabbing the pilot by the collar of his shirt, James pulled his forward, forcing him to make eye contact. He wasn't too terribly angry-

But it was obvious he lacked the shining sense of humor and fun that Duo possessed. He lacked it by a lot.

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-17 10:13 am (UTC)(link)
Well that was-

That was a man kiss.

If Duo could have qualified for a man. After all, James was his senior by about ten years, (give or take).

Still...

James was left, mouth agape, a look of mild horror plastered on his face. Duo, in spite of his appearance, was a man. No amount of being desperate, lonely or sexually depraived was going to change that.

No matter the fact that he'd been making obvious passes at the widower-

In the end of everything, James wasn't attracted to men. Not in the least-

And this- this was absolutely wrong. Utterly wrong.
ʇı ʞɐǝɹq puɐ ʇı ǝʞɐʇ

But he only shoved the brunette away for a moment before looking back at him.

"Why..." Search for the words NO NO NO, "Do you want me...?"

Why would anyone want me but ʎɹɐɯ?

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-17 10:42 am (UTC)(link)
It really wasn't the age barrier bothering James. It was... well it was everything about the situation.

"I'm not much of a soldier. Just the national guard for a couple years. Never saw a war or anything..." He found himself explaining, in a true show of just how surreal the situation was for him.

But this-

This young thing was offering himself up... Just for James. Just for him. How many chances would he have to ever-

Maria wasn't even real. The insanity of even facing that fact just proved to more justify the situation.

He did feel disgusted, but only vaguely so. Maybe.

Maybe he could pretend.

He closed his eyes.



Leaning forward, he pulled Duo along with him, to what could hardly be called a decent kiss. It was messy, clumsy and too forceful by a lot.

Just Imagine HER.

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-17 11:18 am (UTC)(link)
There's no going back now. It wasn't entirely new territory, and closing his eyes worked just well enough that he didn't quite feel like hanging himself right then.

Though when Duo interrupted him he was snapped out of his space of justification just enough to give an annoyed growl.

What now-

Reluctantly, he could tell he was being urged to slow down. He gave a hiss of protest but little more and restrained himself just enough to get by. Whatever it takes, right? Do whatever it takes. Just-

Slowly then, he pushed the young man to the floor, eyes closed again, trying his best to kiss nicely though it was still invasive as hell and not entirely pleasant. James, in the end, while he seemed timid for the most part, was quite forceful when given control. It was always about control-

In the way he planted his palms on Duo's shoulders, keeping him pinned. Nothing too alarming, yet. It simply was proof James really had little to no experience with men, and was more than rusty with intimacy.



He crawled over to straddle the brunette. He seemed to be getting the hang of things until, barely audible-

"Mary..."

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-17 11:49 am (UTC)(link)


"Mm- sorry- sorry-" It didn't sound much like an apology, "I'm not used to-"

He didn't even bother finishing the sentence.

"Just- hold still-" Wandering hands made a point to avoid any part of Duo that made it obvious he was a man, though through James' clumsy ways it was hard to tell if it was on purpose.

Still, he hadn't let up on the younger man at all.

He lifted his body just enough to situate his knees under Duo's legs, not wasting time to press his hips into the man's backside harshly.

God please please please

A hand made its way up to touch Duo's collarbone. It seemed like at least, there- he was trying to be comforting- maybe?

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-17 12:24 pm (UTC)(link)
"SHH!" James demanded. He'd more than had it with being interrupted.

"God please just let me-" He was grinding much too hard, almost to the point of being painful.

The hand that had been lingering by Duo's neckline moved up, and he easily resisted the younger man's grip- at least with his good arm. Fingers closed around the brunette's throat, squeezing the windpipe until it was completely collapsed-

Harder and harder.

It was then that it became obvious this wasn't going to work. Not with James. He was already too far gone.

He was insane. No doubt something horrible had made him this way- right?

PLEASE MARY PLEASE JUST-

GET OUT GET OUT JAMES GET THE HELL OUT I'M A MONSTER NEVER COME BACK

I HATE YOU

I HATE YOU

I WISH YOU'D JUST DIE

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-19 04:31 am (UTC)(link)
Duo's struggle seemed utterly pointless, James was almost twice his weight, and while he was already in pain from his injuries, he seemed to be just too insane at the moment to care.

It had moved past the point of even advances, and right on into the older man using brute force, one hand still clenched around Duo's neck, squeezing, pressing his thumb in- so close...

It would be so easy to just rip the boy's throat out- yes- put him out of his misery.

Suddenly he rears back, (with his good arm) and brings a clenched fits down onto Duo's face- repeatedly.

Why why did you make me do this we could have been friends it was just a game of cards why did you offer this to me why mary why did you get sick it could have been so good mary why did you get sick why did my life fall apart why MARY WHY MARY WHY

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-20 06:20 am (UTC)(link)
There's was a deafening bellow as the knife slid deep into James' shoulder, slipping between the muscle and bone like a- well, like a knife through butter. It did seem to throw him off for a second, falling back and writhing, desperately grasping at the handle sticking out of him- only to be kneed in the groin.

That certainly earned another almost inhuman sounding wail of agony and James finally rolled onto his side, taking a few moments to recover from the pain searing his nerves.

Stumbling to his feet and leaning on a wall, he finally grasped the knife firmly and jerked it out with a pained growl. It didn't seem he was going to be stopped so easily- though it would be a perfect time for Duo to escape.

[identity profile] pillows-mcgee.livejournal.com 2008-07-20 07:09 am (UTC)(link)
One last muffled yell, James wavered, sliding along the wall, leaving a long smear of blood where he dragged his wounded shoulder.

"Wa- wait..." One hand extended as the other covered the stinging wound.

"Mary... Don't die M-" He tripped over the floor mat, falling with a sickening thud.

"Mary... I- I did it because I love you, Mary. I just couldn't watch you suf-" His breath hitched, "Suffer...Mary- No. That's a lie- that- I just- I wanted my life back I ca"

At last he slept, a nightmarishly quiet sleep, left to wake eventually and face his sins again.