fourteen: (let go → to see you again)
[XIV] Xion ([personal profile] fourteen) wrote in [community profile] lucetilogs2011-02-23 06:31 pm

now she's here, suddenly I know / if she's here, it's crystal clear / I'm where I'm meant to go

Who: [livejournal.com profile] cakeblocked and [livejournal.com profile] poppetry
What: The truth.
When: Starting just before sunset of the 21st.
Where: First at house 5, then That One Bridge.
Summary: This has been a long time in coming. Two shy, stupid, utterly oblivious Replicas finally get their shit together and talk. (Also Kukki and I write each other a series of small novels.)
Rating: PG. (This will probably be the most Disney thing to ever Disney in the history of Disney-fied things.)

Xion's first feeling after the experiment had been ... fear. Lingering, terrible fear that none of it was real, despite all the reasoning and arguments and gentle proddings to the contrary. Of course, she'd told Luke she didn't care, that none of it mattered, that she'd make it real...

And those words were true. But even so... even so... it would have been a blow to learn. All those memories... fake? Different? How could they be? It would have hurt so much...

But on waking early that morning, Xion had realized something, after the fear had faded and she'd had some time to sort through everything she remembered. All of it... was the same. Everything. The way she felt when Luke gave her her own little Christmas. The tightness in her chest when Sanji had asked her, very frankly, You really like him, don't you?

Her plan... to tell him her feelings on Valentine's Day. The letter she'd written... in case of the experiment!

She'd leaped out of bed like someone had electrified her, torn between elation and a driving sense of urgency. It was true! It was all true, all real!

And thus she'd come up with a plan. She had several people to speak with, after all -- Ven, poor Ven, Sokka and Fenimore... and Tsuzuki. Xion found herself endlessly, almost stupidly grateful he'd made that silly entry with the socks, giving her the idea to try and circumvent the experiment. Writing out her feelings for Luke in that letter... had made her blush like crazy, but it had felt so, so good to finally admit it, even if he wasn't going to see it just yet. And the idea had worked like a charm, too -- doing exactly what she hoped. Just sitting there in that box, waiting -- for the moment when the experiment would be over, and whatever had happened -- whatever had gone right or wrong -- she could tell Luke the truth, with proof that predated any Malnosso manipulation.

Honestly, she'd have to bake Tsuzuki cookies for this.

Thankfully he'd responded in a timely manner, too -- it'd still been morning when she'd been able to retrieve the letter and beat a hasty retreat back home, to think (and talk to her friends, too). But also ... to decide what to do. Though she knew the words by heart, she read and reread the letter she'd written, her blush slowly fading as the true significance of her words sank in. This was real... in her hands was tangible proof of her feelings. And that meant ... well. She had to talk to him, didn't she?

So it was that she ended up in front of house 5 a few hours later, fidgeting with nervousness, twisting and untwisting her fingers together. It was already well into the afternoon, almost evening, but it had taken all of those hours of reading and thinking and thinking some more to even work up the courage to leave the house again, much less actually walk over to his. After all... just like before, she didn't know for certain if Luke returned her feelings. Even if he'd said ... he'd said ...

Let's... Let's work together to make it real, okay?

B-But that could have been the experiment... right? Yet somehow... she couldn't get the feeling of hope out of her heart. Anxious hope, but hope nonetheless. This just had to be real... They'd practically sworn to each other. Promised, no matter what happened, to make what they had real, to make it work. She had to believe this would happen. After all... as it had turned out, she'd really meant it when she said she didn't want to just be his friend anymore. If he didn't want... if he didn't feel-- she'd take anything he'd give her, of course. Anything! But if he really didn't love her back, it'd ...

Well. She'd cross that bridge when she came to it, if she absolutely must, as much as it would hurt.

There was no turning back now. Moving up to the door, Xion took a deep, steadying breath and raised her hand to knock.
fabrecation: (Back up a second there)

[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-23 11:54 pm (UTC)(link)
When Luke had woken up the day the experiment ended, he felt the same thing that Xion did: fear. Even when he slowly realized that all those memories of slowly growing closer to Xion were still in his head, he couldn't help but be afraid. What if those were just lingering effects of the experiment? What if they were still fake? It'd be just like them to make them doubt themselves even after everything was over, after all.

Without really thinking about it, Luke had reached over to write in his journal - not the one he used for communication, but the one in which he wrote his entire life. He'd already filled up one book of his first three months here, and now he would write down his insecurities on this next one.

Except... a thought occurred to him. He clearly remembered writing about Xion a few times, and if that memory was fake... the journal would have nothing except maybe a mention or two of her. With his pen hovering over the page, Luke hesitated and doubted, fearing what he might find. But with a deep breath, he flipped back a few pages; past the whole week of what Valentine's Day had unleashed (Luke would have to get rid of those pages, they were far too corny for his tastes) and to the day before Valentine's. Then, to the day he gave Xion his coat and set up a Christmas just for her. Then to the day he found out she was a replica.

It was real. It was real.

The first thing Luke did upon finding that out was slump back in his chair, run a hand through his hair and let out a long, deep sigh of relief as most of the fear rushed out with it. The second thing that he did was open his eyes to stare at the ceiling and smile to himself.

And the third thing that he did was let out a long groan. Sure, his feelings were real... But what about Xion's? She had said that she wanted to make it all real, but what about now, now that the experiment was over? Did she still feel that way? Luke wouldn't be surprised if she didn't - he was a very awkward person when it came to things like this, after all. The past week had told him that.

What should he do about that? Talk to her? Wait for her? Luke wasn't sure at all. He didn't know anything about this kind of thing, after all... He would ask Guy, but it'd be unfair to bog him down with his own problems while he was still recovering from his own. Luke was pretty sure Guy had fallen for someone, and Asch too, so that was just one more issue that the house had to deal with.

Luke had to do this himself.

He got up from his desk, and before he could resolve himself to go looking for Xion, he glanced at the swords in the corner of his room. Every time he looked at them, a ball of guilt welled up in his chest, and this time was no different, despite the revelation that rocked him. During his first draft, Luke was so injured and so scared that he didn't even notice until a couple of weeks later... But Guy had lost a sword that was very important to him, all to save him. The same sword that had hung in the foyer of the manor for as long as Luke could remember... The sword that belonged to the Gardios family. It was gone, and Luke was solely to blame.

Maybe he could find Xion while he checked the weapons store again. Maybe the sword was there, maybe he could give it back and apologize, maybe...

With that thought in mind, Luke got up, headed down the stairs and went to the door, preparing to head out with two goals in mind. Upon pulling open the door and taking a step outside and seeing who was waiting for him, though, Luke abruptly realized that one goal was already accomplished, and way faster than he was expecting.

He stared down at Xion, who looked as if she was about to knock on the door. What was she...?

"... Xion?"
fabrecation: (So YOU took the last cookie!)

[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-24 12:19 am (UTC)(link)
For a moment, the two of them just stared at each other. Those tangled and confusing feelings that had made themselves present during the past week returned, and if Luke wasn't convinced that this was real before, this certainly confirmed it for him. He wanted to reach out and hug her, ask her how she's been... maybe apologize for how... forward? he'd been. But he suppressed that urge; it wouldn't do right now, not when there was a clear, awkward tension in the air.

Tension so pressing that Xion turned and started to run. Luke had half expected her to do so, which is how he was able to reach out and grab her shoulder before she could get out of reach.

What was he doing? If she wanted to avoid him or... to never see him again, it'd be okay. Painful, but okay, and understandable. So why was he stopping her?

Because he had to talk to her. He couldn't lose the friendship they shared, even if it could never be anything more. Even a friendship would be more than Luke deserved. So, he held onto her shoulder firmly, sealing off any chance of escape, and he spoke with a raised voice that held a tone of determination: "Xion, wait!"
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[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-24 01:04 am (UTC)(link)
Once the grip was broken, Luke's hand hovered in the air for a moment, as if he was slightly unsure, before he slowly brought it back down to his side. Her hands were shaking; Luke just wanted to reach out and hold them, but... again, that wouldn't do. Anything beyond what he might do as a friend might just be inappropriate and uncalled for, and the last thing he wanted to do was cross the line, to screw up again.

Then Xion spoke, said she wanted to talk to him. Just the look on her face let him know that this was serious. Was it about last week? It had to be; what else could it be? That realization made anxiousness rise up again, the same one that had seized him when he woke up.

I wanted to talk to you.

Who knew those six words could be so foreboding? Luke shifted in his place as a result and reached up - out of nervous habit - to run a hand through the back of his hair, where he had sliced through the long, thick hair months ago.

"... Yeah. I... wanted to talk to you too, actually. Oh, but wait a second-"

With that, Luke turned and rushed inside, back up to his room, where his journal still laid open. If they were going to talk... Luke had to show her this. It'd be risky; there were several other things that he'd write about that he's sure no one would like reading, but... at least the part that made him realize that this was real. Just that.

Luke rested his hand against the pages for a few seconds - he really owed this thing sometimes, then he closed it, held it under his arm and hurried back downstairs. He wouldn't want Xion to think he wanted to escape from her or anything.

Once he was at the door again, he offered a somewhat tight smile, one that betrayed his nerves. "Okay... Where do you want to go?"
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[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-24 02:06 am (UTC)(link)
Luke had a vague idea of where they were going, but he'd have to actually go there to make sure. With a nod, he followed her silently, shifting the book in his arm and pursing his lips every few seconds.

This was terrifying. Facing Van for the final time was terrifying, trying to dodge all of Guy's attacks when he was affected by the Curse Slot was terrifying, but this was a different kind of fear. There was nothing for him to lash out against - no swords to clash his own into, no way for him to yell out attack names and, at the same time, his own fear, and no way for him to just steel his nerves and brave his fear enough to charge forward into battle.

Luke's expression seems a little blank, even faraway, as his thoughts run through his head. He can't help but wonder what it would've been like if he hadn't met Xion; Would he be like he always was? Would his crush on Tear grow into something more? If that were the case, would she be the one in Xion's place? For a second he even imagines it: Tear walking in front of him with her brown hair swaying in the wind, and he'd probably be just as nervous - No, no no no, this isn't about Tear right now. It's Xion who's in front of him, the one who's making his heart thud in his chest, the one who makes him want to rush to the spot where they're going and turn and run away at the same time.

He might have given a light shake of his head before he focused again, and by the time he did, he saw where they were going. The bridge... That bridge. Where they first told each other what they were - replicas, made to be weapons, to be used and thrown away... That's how this whole thing started, didn't it?

Luke scratched at the side of his neck lightly as they made it onto the bridge, and once he stopped, unable to lift his gaze from the bridge, he tried to speak. He had to say it all now; if not now, then when?

"Xion... I..."

At that moment, his stupid nerves decided to clam up. Oh, not now...
fabrecation: (This is why I can never top anyone)

[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-24 03:13 am (UTC)(link)
Luke had lifted his head and listened quietly to Xion, staring at her back and letting her speak. He wasn't... really sure where she was going with all of this, though he was glad to hear it all the same. This bridge was clearly important to her... In the middle of her talk, Luke looked along the bridge, then past it, into the entrance of the plaza. It was easy to see why this place was so special, aside from all of her memories. It was a really nice place...

And when she speaks to him, he gave her his attention once more. She studied him, just as he did to her - how could she be so calm? Luke was absolutely nervous, though one could only tell by the worried crease in his brow and how he held the book close to his side. It's possible that his voice might have closed up entirely - Luke wasn't sure what to say or what to do. Thankfully, Xion helped him out by giving him the letter.

A letter that he had to read multiple times. The first time he had stopped right at the "I love you", then read it again. His eyes slowly widened, his cheeks started to turn red, and his mouth gaped open a little.

She... loved him? Really, truly? The same way that he did for her? Luke's first thought was to deny it, but there it was, written for him and made plain as day. So everything... her singing, her blushing, everything... he wasn't just thinking too much about it during the experiment?

The shock of it nearly made him drop his journal, and he let out a startled noise and grabbed at it, catching it by the spine. He couldn't lose it - couldn't. And now that his train of thought was broken, now that he had the letter in one hand and the book in the other, held at his sides rather awkwardly, he snaps his gaze from the book to her. It takes him a bit of work, some opening and closing his mouth, but then he finally speaks up.

"You... You wrote this? For me...?"
fabrecation: (I don't dare to breathe)

1/2 goddamn 8|

[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-24 03:39 am (UTC)(link)
When Sanji was a- that was still very, very weird to think about.

And she spoke, asked him what he wanted to tell her... What did he- Ah. That's right, he wanted to tell her... What she told him. But how does he- Luke didn't even know the first thing about-

Then, Xion clasped her hands and looked away. Luke's fear - he wasn't even sure why it was still there - continued to hammer at his chest, but... he wanted to make her happy again. And if she... loved him, then maybe this would do it.

"I was... Xion, I..." Luke managed to stutter out, but that was all. His throat was betraying him again, and he turned his head away and frowned to himself. Come on, Luke, spit it out.

But... Maybe he didn't have to. In his line of sight was his journal, the very thing he was going to use to show her how he felt. If she could give him a letter, then he could give her one, too. Sort of. It'd be so much easier than trying to say it, anyway.

While he kept the letter tucked between his fingers, he lifted the journal to flip through pages - he missed the mark a couple of times out of his own nervousness, a sort of elated nervousness now that his own fear was starting to melt away. Come on, come on- no, not the mushy mess of the Valentine's entries- ah, there. Luke rested his fingertips against the page for a few seconds, then held out the journal to Xion with a small, yet growing smile.

"Just... read this." And the journal read:
Edited 2011-02-24 03:46 (UTC)
fabrecation: (Bring you to the sky)

2/2

[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-24 03:40 am (UTC)(link)
The calendar says it's February 13th today. How do you even pronounce that? I still don't know what that is compared to Auldrant's calendar, and I stopped trying to figure it out a long time ago. I don't even know when my birthday is...

But I guess that isn't really important. It isn't my birthday, anyway... The important day comes up tomorrow. Valentine's Day... We've never had a holiday like that in Auldrant, and I'm kind of glad for it. I don't think I've ever been this nervous before! I already talked about how Guy made me realize... and I'm still not really sure how I'm going to do this.

I spent all day today trying to find something like a field of flowers. It was getting dark by the time I got back, and I still didn't find anything. I was kind of disappointed... It would've been great to lead her there and have her close her eyes because it's a surprise... Like that one story! It only occurred to me after I got back that a lot of flowers've already died out. That was pretty stupid of me, huh?

I still wanted to find something to give her. Maybe I can't tell her how I feel yet... but I still wanted to show that I care for her. I stopped by the flower shop to see if there was anything I could get her, though a lot of the things were cut... I don't really want to give that. Cut flowers die after a while, you know? I want to give her something that lasts for a long time... Wouldn't she like that?

Then I found three iris unguicularis. Right when I saw them, I knew they'd be the ones I'd give to her! They last all winter, and you don't really need to take care of them very much... They'd be perfect! And they're blue, too, like her eyes... Best of all, they're in a pot! They won't die out, like the roses and the tulips. Maybe... Maybe now if she's sad, or just wants to see something besides the snow, she can look outside and see the flowers there. Flowers that can last even in the cold... Maybe she'll be happy when she sees them.

That's all I really want out of this. I want her to be happy... That's why I can't say anything yet. I don't want her to feel awkward or obligated or anything.

... That isn't all of it, though. What I'm feeling isn't like what I felt with Sylvia, or with Tear. It's a lot more than that. I've never felt like this with anyone else... I've never had anything like this before. If I ruined it just because of these feelings I have... I don't know what I'd do.

Someday, I'll tell her how I feel. Maybe she can accept it. Maybe she'd even...

But I probably shouldn't hope for it. So I'll write it here, just to remind me what I need to say later.

I love really like kind of I don't know love her... Xion. This isn't just a crush, it's...

... Man, now I can't stop blushing. I should just stop here.
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[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-24 04:27 am (UTC)(link)
Luke's smile had turned into a grin as she read, and he even gave a somewhat happy, somewhat smug sound when she asked about the flowers before he gestured for her to keep reading. He could just... leap into the air and punch his arms up and shout for joy; she loves him! She really does!

Except he didn't, because that would just look silly and Xion would probably laugh at him. Instead, he shoved his hands into his coat pockets and gripped them into fists to hide his excitement until she was done.

And she did. And she was shocked, just like him when he first read her letter, which was still gripped in his hand and sticking out of his pocket. And she looked so... happy. Luke had never seen her look that happy before, and to know that he was the one that made it happen...

It made something warm rise up in his chest.

He took in a deep breath and leaned forward a bit, just to try and gather up his nerves and says the words for himself, when-

...

She had to bring that up?

Luke was on such an emotional high that he reacted quite brilliantly to that: He choked on his words, loosened and clenched his hands again, widened his eyes... Then blushed furiously, this time out of embarrassment, and shrugged his shoulders while he looked away; Still, he didn't look too annoyed. He was too elated to feel that way, even over her teasing him (again)!

"I-Yeah, so? We don't have that month in Auldrant! How was I supposed to know how to say it?!" He stammered in an effort to defend himself, and he just hoped Xion wouldn't ask him how he'd been pronouncing it.
Edited 2011-02-24 04:35 (UTC)
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[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-24 05:06 am (UTC)(link)
At first Luke had taken his hands out of his pockets and opened his mouth to tell her to be careful with that journal, because that held all of his memories and he wasn't sure what he'd do if it suddenly fell into the river, but his words caught in his throat, again, and turned into a surprised yell as she practically launched herself at him and brought them both down to the bridge. The letter went flying out of Luke's hand, but thankfully, it landed right near his journal, which was big enough to keep it safe from the light wind that threatened to push it into the river.

For a moment, Luke just laid there with wide eyes as he tried to figure out why the sky was suddenly right in front of his face while his wings twitched and ached from the hard fall. But after realizing what Xion done, and once he paid attention enough to realize that she was laughing, but not at him. No, she was just... happy. And at that moment, it didn't matter that his wings ached or that they both looked ridiculous; Luke wrapped his arms around her and laughed with her. They must've looked so silly, wrapped up like this and laughing and blushing while draped over the bridge, but it didn't matter. They were here, and they loved each other, and that was all that mattered.

When they both calmed down, and Xion touched his face and hair, and said... that, Luke responded with a somewhat helpless smile and a deeper redness in his cheeks. It felt... nice, being touched like this, and hearing... that. Still, he couldn't get over those words - they held so much weight that it was hard to get them out of his throat. He opened his mouth, was silent for a second, then said in return, "... Yeah. I... love you too." Again, it was said in a rush, just like the first time he said it to her. Quickly, he moved on to something else, "I didn't tell you, but... That week was the happiest I've ever been." He chuckled slightly, "I guess we've got a lot to look forward to!"
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[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-24 09:13 am (UTC)(link)
Once Xion got off of him, Luke had to lay there for a moment, unable to believe his luck. Just a while ago he was so afraid that the week before might have ruined whatever friendship they had, or at least put a strain to it, but now... Here he was. Stuff like this didn't happen to Luke, yet...

With a long sigh, he sat up, then stretched his lips and scowled a little when his wings started flapping out of his control. That was something he still never got the hang of; he never liked for his wings to be touched - in fact, he'd only let Guy do it when he couldn't reach a spot that needed to be cleaned. When they were bothered, they'd shake and flutter, and it took some control to get them to calm the hell down.

When he was able to do that, he sighed, then looked at Xion as he stood and moved to be beside her, closer than he usually would. Now that she was here, Luke wanted to do so many things - hug her, hold her hand... k-kiss-NO, he couldn't do that! Just... do things together. But what?

... What had Guy told him? ... Oh. Oh, that's right. When the thought occurred to Luke, he ducked his head just a little and glanced at her, as if he was about to offer something that made him feel slightly awkward.

"Now? Um, well... Maybe we should... go on a date?"
Edited 2011-02-24 09:15 (UTC)
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[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-26 06:22 am (UTC)(link)
At Xion's touch, the wing leaned away, because it was an unfamiliar touch and - and odd, not grooming but...

It felt nice to Luke, but not to the wings. After a few brushes of his wing, it started to flutter again, the other one moving in turn. Maybe someday they'd relax and let Xion be one of the Chosen Few, but for right now... No, not even the girl could get close to them.

But Luke didn't have the heart to acknowledge them, because Xion just accepted his offer, and that made him beam in turn. She... She said yes! They could go on a date! ... Except Luke still wasn't entirely sure what a date was, but it didn't sound too hard.

And with Xion looking towards the sun like that...

Night time was near, but the sun still filtered through the trees and splashed them with dying colors. Xion still looked happy, and with those colors shining on her...

Luke leaned forward, intending to surprise her with a kiss on her cheek-

And then she turned to look up at him and ask the question.

... Oh dear Yulia and Score and everything else that people on Auldrant swear by Xion was so close to his face right now. And a part of his mind told him that if he leaned forward just a couple of inches more, he'd... he'd...

The thought made him panic a little, and instead of doing what his mind was nudging him to do, he leaned to the side to go for his intended target: a kiss on the cheek. It seemed quick, like a peck more than a kiss, and he blushed and looked off to the side towards the river as he pulled back and just registered what she asked him.

"I... I don't know, maybe... uh... G-Good Spirits? Wait, no, uh..."
fabrecation: (/walked in on Guy and Asch)

Never mind |D

[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-26 07:43 am (UTC)(link)
"... Xion?"

It was all Luke could say at that point, really, as Xion held his cheek and stood on her toes. He knew what was coming, and panic settled again - he'd never been kissed before! Not like this! Sure, he'd give kisses on the cheek to his mother but... that was it! Not this!

Those thoughts made him lean his head back just a little, because this was very new and honestly kind of scary. But she made it anyway, and his eyes went wide while his cheeks flamed up even more and his body froze in place. This was... completely different from kisses on the cheek. There was a soft, tingling pressure against his lips which made warmth travel through his body, making him feel a little light-headed. For a moment he couldn't even breathe, couldn't even move, as if the world had shifted and he was just trying to stay balanced until it stopped.

There... wasn't much else that he could do thanks to that.
Edited 2011-02-26 07:51 (UTC)
fabrecation: (Xion - The fog has lifted)

B|

[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-26 08:01 am (UTC)(link)
It was all Luke could do to keep himself standing and not fall right on his bottom. Xion had just... And he...

He liked it. Luke stared ahead, barely even hearing Xion as he raised a hand towards his lips, though he didn't touch them... He glanced down at his hand, and he wondered... What had he been so afraid of? That was...

With that same hand, he reached forward to hold Xion's cheek, just as she did to him, and he followed it a second later. Though he hesitated at first, if only because he wasn't sure if he was doing this right, he still completed the journey and pressed his lips to hers in a gentle, if just slightly awkward, kiss.

Yeah. He really should listen when his mind nudges him to do things next time.
fabrecation: (We can feel a change is coming)

Happy? 8|

[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-26 06:12 pm (UTC)(link)
Luke pulled back about the same time Xion did, and his own eyes remained shut for a second before they opened to look down at her in a way that suggested he was thinking the very same thing. They were really... together, weren't they? And they'd be like this for... however long it'd last. Luke certainly hoped it'd be a long time...

Then he remembered how he reacted when she first kissed him. How she reacted... Luke was feeling a little too giddy to feel too bad about it, but he still chuckled quietly, helplessly, and ducked his head to break the eye contact.

"... Sorry about that. I never..."

After those words, however, he lifted his head again, a serious expression on his face as he reached out to take her hands. He wanted to let Xion understand... so that maybe that wouldn't happen again. "Xion, I... I might make a lot of mistakes. I've never done this before..."
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[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-26 07:50 pm (UTC)(link)
And with those words, Luke squeezed her hands and smiled. Xion might have looked concerned, but... everything would be okay. She was right - they were in this together. They might make a few mistakes, like Luke freezing and acting like a fish out of water when she kissed him... But they'd work through it. Luke was sure of it.

"Okay."

Not every relationship was happy all the time. Luke knew that just from watching Guy and Asch, knowing that they were happy together, but also seeing Asch storm off for time alone (he was even in his head for one of those times), or the two of them being tense around each other... For that matter, how did last week go for them? Luke would have to ask later. Right now, he pushed that thought aside to focus on Xion.

"We'll work together. Then nothing will stop us, right?"
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[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-26 08:31 pm (UTC)(link)
"... What? That wasn't-"

And then she hugged him. See now, that wasn't fair, cutting off his defending himself like that. But he still mock scowled, then sighed and rested a hand on top of her head while he looked up at the sky. And at her words, he couldn't help but let the scowl fade in favor of a smile. He was excited, too... Especially since this was his first time ever doing something like this. He knew that Xion had been in a relationship before, but... he would do his best to let her be happy and not let it end like theirs did.

"... Yeah. Heh, and to think we were so scared before all this!" Luke remarked with a light chuckle; oh yes, he had been terrified. And if he was that scared, he's pretty sure Xion felt that way, too. But now...

Now, Luke lightly ruffled her hair as he looked down and offered, "Hey, why don't we go to Seventh Heaven? I don't know if there's anyone there this late at night, but..."

Well, Luke kind of preferred it that way. No customers looking at them, no Sanji to make him nervous and self-aware... Maybe he could even show her what he's learned with the piano.
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[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-27 12:44 am (UTC)(link)
So there probably were people there. Well... He could handle it. Luke isn't a recluse like Asch and all. So what if people look at them? He didn't care. Nope. ... And maybe being with Xion, in this way, will make all the rest of the things he's worrying about not matter as much. They'd be okay. And... yeah, it would be a nice place for a first... d-date.

Gaaah he had to blush. Well. At least she had her face in his chest so that she couldn't see his own, though he lifted his head just in case.

But then she looked up at him and...

...

"... Sing?" Right there? Right now? With Xion staring at him so expectantly and - and where everyone could hear?
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[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-27 10:28 am (UTC)(link)
"But Xiooon..."

There was probably a whine in that tone of his. His hand fell away from her hair so that he could hang his arms and look just as exasperated as possible, though with how over the top it was... well, considering how emotional Luke is, it's hard to tell whether he's serious or not.

"I don't like singing." And there lay the entire reason behind why he was always so quiet and reluctant while he'd sing. Luke always enjoyed hearing songs and music, but definitely not singing it. He wasn't sure why, it was just... He felt like all eyes would be on him and judging him, and it didn't help that he'd be absolutely embarrassed by the end of it by anyone who listened to him...

But still... The way she was looking at him, and Luke felt those puppy dog eyes staring at him even while he looked up at the sky. It was really hard to say no to those eyes, especially when it was something like singing, even if he didn't like doing it.

So, while he stared at the sky, Luke pursed his lips, then started to hum. It was nothing really comprehensible at first, just a few notes to warm up a bit. And to think of a song. Just the right one for her to hear...
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[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-28 08:28 am (UTC)(link)
Luke cut off his humming and glanced at her while he turned away a little, just so that he could face the railing instead of the bridge, and scowl just slightly, as if he was merely embarrassed.

"B-Because of stuff like that..." He muttered. And it was the truth: while some praise was practically eaten up by Luke in the past, compliments that were so... deep and genuine would just embarrass him and make him not want it anymore. After so long, it'd sound... fake. And they weren't, he knew it, but he'd just get tired of hearing it. Couldn't he do a mediocre job at it just once? Apparently not.

He leaned against the railing and continued on; "And... I guess I just don't like the way it feels. I want to listen to it, not listen to myself. It hurts my throat, too... It's just annoying when I do it.

"But I guess if you like it..."

That didn't mean he'd suddenly change his mind about singing. It's a viewpoint he held on to for years, one that even crossed over from the way Asch was wired. Neither of them particularly liked singing despite being good at it.

But if she liked it... He'd do it, since she asked. He ducked his head and hummed a few bars, still trying to pick out a song. There were a lot to choose from, yet some weren't even suited for singing, and some just... weren't enough. Not for her. Not for this moment.
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[personal profile] fabrecation 2011-02-28 08:58 am (UTC)(link)
A memory flashed in Luke's mind once she started to run her fingers through his hair, a sign of affection that he was sure he'd never grow tired of. He was twelve, almost a teenager... rather, almost three when he peeked into the meeting room and saw his mother and father, fingers entwined and dancing slowly together. He'd watched for a moment before he grew bored and moved away - good thing, too, as a couple of the maids had been looking for him and would've found him easily if he stayed.

Come to think of it, it was one of the few times he'd seen his mother and father truly together like that. Other times, they'd seem so... distant. Supporting each other, but at an arm's length. He glanced at Xion, who was saying something, and he couldn't help but wonder if they'd be like that in the future...

He desperately hoped they wouldn't. No, not just hoped; he wouldn't let that happen.

And really... he could handle singing, if it was just for her, if he didn't have to do it too much. Maybe, anyway... He certainly could now, as he looked away from her crooked smile and her offer and answered it with that very same song from his memory, the one that his father and mother shared a rare, affectionate moment to. One that he hoped would stay with him and Xion for... for however long they decided to be together.
Edited 2011-02-28 09:10 (UTC)