lucetilogs | I don't know why I had to try living my life on the otherside

Who: Winry Rockbell (

installing ) and Haruhi Suzumiya (

godbent )
What: GIRLTIME
When: April 15th, Winry Day
Where: En route to House 10 from Cloud Nine
Summary: Something about the event really hit home. It's time to talk about it.
Rating: S for SUPER SERIOUS

[Winry couldn't tell if she enjoyed that little time of thinking she lived in Sokka's world or not. In some ways she really enjoyed the experience, and felt closer to one of her best friends. In other ways it only cemented some ideas that had been clawing at the back of her mind. She needed to deal with them. Doubt, uncertainty, and fear kept her from doing so before. However she cannot put it off any longer. She wants to make a family. She wants to marry and have children, and she wants it soon. However Haruhi isn't nearly ready for that. She can tell. The air between them lately hasn't been the same, either, so perhaps it really is time. And as they walk back from a night date at Cloud Nine the two share an umbrella.
Winry thinks about how her shoes are lightly soaked as her conversation with Haruhi finds a lull. Now's her chance. She speaks up.]

Hey, Haruhi? Can I ask you something?

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Yes.

[...]

Tell me a story, Winry. Of how it's going to be.

[...] It'll be hard. I guess we'll slip up a bit. We'll both need time to get things straight. But eventually we'll have moved on? You'll find someone more interesting than me, we'll be dating other people. I'll get married.

[Fat chance]

That's a summary, not a story.

[She doesn't let anything leak into that]

I'm not going to write a book about it.

Winry, shut up.

[Her voice cracked there] I don't need a book, just a story.

"How it's going to be" is a pretty broad topic.

[Snort. Just. do something. She tires to manipulate the flame with her eyes closed]

[Nope. How the hell is she supposed to tell Haruhi how it's going to be? She doesn't know. She can only hope they don't break apart to never see each other again. Or avoid each other.]

...Nevermind, that was stupid.

[She closes her palm, the flame goes off and she stands. This was stupid. Since when can exes be friends? It was hard enough before... Nngh. Maybe she should just go instead]

[W-what?]

Wait! That's not it. I just don't know what to say! I don't know how it's going to be, but what I don't want is for us to drift apart.

Then what do you want, Winry?

[life partners, bah]

I want us to stay close. I want you to be my maid of honor, to help me with the wedding, and to be the godmother of my children. I want you to be there when they're born, and I want you to be a part of their lives as well.

But if we drift apart and avoid each other that can't happen.

...You know all of those are you benefit, not mine.

[It's not biting, just an observation. she remains there, standing halfway between the bench and the door]

I'm- I'm just saying that no matter how much you accuse me of wanting it, I don't want to forget you.

...You're hurting me. Leaving me high and dry. Whatever your reasons and dreams, can you acknowledge that?

[Right. Of course she's hurting Haruhi. She knows that, but Winry feels this is the best choice. For the both of them. Hurt is unavoidable, and she's sorry for that, but with all her heart she hopes that hurt will dull and fade over time.]

Yes.

[...At least she's not denying it. Haruhi relents a bit, frowning deeply, but then goes to sit next to her girl]

I wish there was a way I could make this not so hard on you. It must be-

[It hurts Winry too, but she has something- a goal- to look forward to. Haruhi... she doesn't.]

Don't tell me how it must be for me. You have no idea.

[Winry says nothing, but her expression isn't hurt or amused. She doesn't have any idea, however she doesn't feel she needs to be criticized for trying to sympathize either.]

[As for Haruhi, she curls her legs up onto he bench, and then curls herself into a little ball, folding her arms around her legs and her head into her knees. As if sympathy will change anything]

[Winry simply lets her posture drop. After being snapped at she's not sure how well a hug will be received. Though, after a few minutes, she can't help it. She tries to wrap her arms around her ex-girlfriend.]

[Haruhi's not about to refuse that. But she's been to mean the rest of this (even if she's not wrong) she doesn't dare speak or look up]

[Winry rests her head on Haruhi. She doesn't say anything, afraid that she'll just be yelled at if she does.]

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