installing: (☎ → Gurney)
Winry Rockbell ([personal profile] installing) wrote in [community profile] lucetilogs2012-04-14 06:24 pm

I don't know why I had to try living my life on the otherside

Who: Winry Rockbell ( [personal profile] installing ) and Haruhi Suzumiya ( [personal profile] godbent )
What: GIRLTIME
When: April 15th, Winry Day
Where: En route to House 10 from Cloud Nine
Summary: Something about the event really hit home. It's time to talk about it.
Rating: S for SUPER SERIOUS


[Winry couldn't tell if she enjoyed that little time of thinking she lived in Sokka's world or not. In some ways she really enjoyed the experience, and felt closer to one of her best friends. In other ways it only cemented some ideas that had been clawing at the back of her mind. She needed to deal with them. Doubt, uncertainty, and fear kept her from doing so before. However she cannot put it off any longer. She wants to make a family. She wants to marry and have children, and she wants it soon. However Haruhi isn't nearly ready for that. She can tell. The air between them lately hasn't been the same, either, so perhaps it really is time. And as they walk back from a night date at Cloud Nine the two share an umbrella.
Winry thinks about how her shoes are lightly soaked as her conversation with Haruhi finds a lull. Now's her chance. She speaks up.]


Hey, Haruhi? Can I ask you something?
reoccurred: (008)

[personal profile] reoccurred 2012-04-15 04:45 am (UTC)(link)
[Winry stops walking and shoots a look at Haruhi.]

You- Don't say that! It isn't about that, and you know it!
godbent: (Suck a cock!)

[personal profile] godbent 2012-04-15 04:47 am (UTC)(link)
It is about that, and you know it too! You can see it in your eyes, you can feel it in how you talk about him!
reoccurred: (002)

[personal profile] reoccurred 2012-04-15 04:55 am (UTC)(link)
This isn't about him, it's about us! Haven't you felt it? What do you feel when we talk!? Didn't it still feel the same last week? When I barely even knew him!?
godbent: (With You)

[personal profile] godbent 2012-04-15 05:02 am (UTC)(link)
[Yes but-] Shut up, shut up!

You're in love with him, you never stopped! So what am I, a speed bump?!

[And ignoring if Winry tilts the umbrella she'll be rained on she pokes a finger into Winry's chest]
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[personal profile] reoccurred 2012-04-15 05:29 am (UTC)(link)
Do you really think I would view you that way? What kind of person do you think I am, Haruhi? You're the person I've known the longest in Luceti, my first for more things than I can count on one hand, and so much more. How can you say all of that would be a "speed bump" to me!?
godbent: (Bamboo Leaf Rhapsody)

[personal profile] godbent 2012-04-15 05:35 am (UTC)(link)
["Because it's not what you wanted"

But she doesn't bite that out. She can't be that cruel. She pouts, crossing her arms almost defensively]
reoccurred: (013)

[personal profile] reoccurred 2012-04-15 05:39 am (UTC)(link)
I love you, but we don't want the same things. I want to commit to a family, and you don't. I don't want you to leave my life. I can't imagine being in Luceti without seeing you as often as I do, but I can't keep growing older and ignoring how much I want to be a wife and mother.
godbent: (Seriously I cried a little)

[personal profile] godbent 2012-04-15 05:41 am (UTC)(link)
[The sadness hasn't hit her yet. Nor has the grief or the pleading or defensiveness or any of that really. Haruhi's still seeing read. She went out on a nice date, they dressed up, and now this. in the rain. she wants to scream and shove Winry, but no. Breathe. Breath. Stew and Breathe and avoid eye contact]
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[personal profile] reoccurred 2012-04-15 05:46 am (UTC)(link)
I haven't stopped loving you, and... I don't think I ever will. You're a large part of my life that I never want to forget or have go away. Don't you believe me?
godbent: (Rain Song)

[personal profile] godbent 2012-04-15 05:51 am (UTC)(link)
I want to, anyway.

[Bite your lip. Take a step away. Don't lose your pride]
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[personal profile] reoccurred 2012-04-15 01:03 pm (UTC)(link)
What do you mean want to? Am I some kind of bad guy for wanting these things? Or are you accusing me of wanting to run off with someone because you think I don't love you anymore?

Because if it's that you better get your head on straight. If it was really that this would have happened a long time ago, wouldn't it?
[Winry uses her emphatically, and because of that the umbrella moves. Her back and left shoulder begin to have rain fall upon them, but Winry pays no mind.]
godbent: (Oh hi a serious face)

[personal profile] godbent 2012-04-15 03:13 pm (UTC)(link)
[Bite your lip, bite your lip.

...So not working]


You've been waiting to forget me.
Edited 2012-04-15 15:15 (UTC)
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[personal profile] reoccurred 2012-04-15 03:21 pm (UTC)(link)
[Winry throws down the umbrella as her face contorts. No, she won't cry. She wont. Winry bites her own lips as the rain soaks her, and the umbrella rolls on the ground.]

Do you really thing that? You honestly think I'm that kind of person? I never want to forget you. Why are you saying that?
godbent: (The Dissociation)

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[personal profile] godbent 2012-04-15 03:25 pm (UTC)(link)
[Haruhi lower's her face as the rain's starting to come down on her too. Stupid- this is going to mess up her hair and this hairband. This dress is so not suited for rain either. Stupid, stupid Suzumiya why are you even thinking about that? Why are you even voicing what you know to be the truth in the deep corners of your heart?

...And perhaps more importantly, why can't you stop?]
godbent: (Suck a cock!)

[personal profile] godbent 2012-04-15 03:26 pm (UTC)(link)
Well a---aren't you?! Every time we talk about it, you're always talking about how you'll go home and forget everything! With resignation, hell, Winry, with hope sometimes! I can hear it in how you're speaking! You think I don't know you well enough to sense it?!
Edited 2012-04-15 15:26 (UTC)
godbent: (Minions don't think!)

OH FINE I WILL

[personal profile] godbent 2012-04-15 03:43 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't understand? I don't understand?! [Fury comes into her eyes now. There might be tears but it's not going to show in the rain as she reaches her arms back and shoves Winry as hard as she can. She knows it's mean, she knows it's pointless but how dare she]

I haven't see my parents in over a year, and before that I hadn't seen them in over two! I write letters to my father regularly! I hadn't seen members of my [not true] original Brigade in years, only to have them come to and have Kyon reject me, Mikuru vanish in a few months, and Yuki vanish in a few days! I've had to miss that stupid boring world more than I ever wanted to miss some useless place like that, having my heart ripped out trying to compensate for the loss of... of whatever it is I might've had back there and I don't understand?!

Screw you!
Edited 2012-04-15 15:44 (UTC)
godbent: (Suck a cock!)

[personal profile] godbent 2012-04-15 04:01 pm (UTC)(link)
So how... so how is it different?! I'll tell you! You're just waiting to go there, waiting to go back and forget this place! Forget me! Go back and marry Ed, have him knock you up younger than you are now and go about your life blissfully unaware that Haruhi Suzumiya ever existed!

[And she stops the ground. Her knees are shaking. What are you doing, Suzumiya? But she can't stop now. Her voice is breaking a little and she's soaked. She can't stop. She wants to stop, but her own pain is contorting into anger and she can't force her voice to stop working]

I'm not an illusion, Winry! I'm not some passing dream you can just shove aside! Or can you?!
Edited 2012-04-15 16:02 (UTC)
godbent: (My Soul; Your Beasts)

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[personal profile] godbent 2012-04-15 04:15 pm (UTC)(link)
[And then, finally, her eyes wide, her knees actually give way to collapse to her knees. She hangs her head, angrily trying to reign in all of her emotions. Had Ed been like he had been in Amestris since he came back to Luceti? Did he smile the way he did there? Hell, it made her feel like she wanted him a little, the moment Winry saw that smile she would just fall into his arms and Haruhi could not survive that. Not right now.

...But that's selfish. She's selfish]
godbent: (When in Rome)

[personal profile] godbent 2012-04-15 04:17 pm (UTC)(link)
[...Her voice is far less angry after she "collects" herself, but she's wet and miserable and-] Both. It's not or, it's and... a-and I get to name one of them.

[Fine, break up with me.]
godbent: (Colors.of.the.Heart)

[personal profile] godbent 2012-04-15 04:40 pm (UTC)(link)
[It's not explicitly rejected, but Haruhi is too hurt and still too pissed somewhere in her heart to really reach her arms up to return it or anything. She just is there with he knees on the ground and in the mud here. And they're sort of in public too. God this really sucks]

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